Venting Finally getting another reason to not live.

[meowmentous]

My friends are siding with my ex, who did horrible shit to me and others, over myself and my other friend.
My ex was horrible to us. And now, he's excluding us. And no one is standing up for me and my friend.
They're just turning a blind eye and letting us being excluded.

They just don't care for me.
It's true to see where their allegiance lies.
With the person who hurt us and not with the victims. Even if they helped them in a dark time, why does one virtue outweigh our multiple times of suffering?
Maybe I'll just kill myself soon so they don't have to deal with me soon. They already aren't standing up for me. And when I try to myself, fuck... they don't seem to care, do they?

 

[getoutgirl]

I'm sorry that happened to you and that your friends are not there for you rn
I don't think you should kill yourself over that, I'd rather you didn't, but if you are already suicidal these things hit so bad so I totally get where you are coming from and how that urge presents itself.
Having support is so crucial when you are like that and if not only you don't have it but it turns on you, your people against you, it messes you up and hurts I've had that.
Again I can only say I'm sorry, this stuff plain sucks. Hang in there how best you can, you deserve people that care and if you still have a friend that does care too and is going through that exclusion too rely on them if you can. big hugs to you <3