__overlord_00
Living with dying...
- Dec 9, 2025
- 10
I'm just venting about this...please don't over-analyze it.
I finally was able to cut myself...I'm not proud of it. But it's my third day and I'm slowly easing into the thing.
It's sort of soothing to do it but i feel unsettled about how i went from not even being able to place the thing on my skin to slowly making cuts.
They aren't exactly deep but all i wanted was to see myself bleed.
That little sting feels refreshing after every mind-numbing day, which is every day to be honest.
It's barely been days and I feel the urge to cut every hour, every hour is a countdown until midnight, when i cut...
I'm afraid that this is turning into a habit
I'm fine with it being a way to cope, but knowing that I'm slowly gonna get regular with it, because I know i will...it makes me feel very unsettled.
I finally was able to cut myself...I'm not proud of it. But it's my third day and I'm slowly easing into the thing.
It's sort of soothing to do it but i feel unsettled about how i went from not even being able to place the thing on my skin to slowly making cuts.
They aren't exactly deep but all i wanted was to see myself bleed.
That little sting feels refreshing after every mind-numbing day, which is every day to be honest.
It's barely been days and I feel the urge to cut every hour, every hour is a countdown until midnight, when i cut...
I'm afraid that this is turning into a habit
I'm fine with it being a way to cope, but knowing that I'm slowly gonna get regular with it, because I know i will...it makes me feel very unsettled.
