lixiane
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- Jul 12, 2024
- 8
I've decided on a date (january 11) and decided on a method. I've started writing the drafts of my letters to my family members that I will print out and leave in a box before I do it. I've decided to just hang myself. It's the easiest for me to do and it takes less time to set up. I think it's just hitting me now that I will be gone soon. I will disappear and one day my closest family members will even forget me. I dont even know if i really should do this. It makes me sad that I'm not selfless enough to hold on for the sake of my mother and my siblings. There was another incident that shook me recently and I think that's what made me finally get the courage to start setting things up. I'm not sure if I should feel happy that that incident finally made me make up my mind. I don't feel happy about it, but I'm not sad about it either. I just feel uneasy.