Venting finally attempted therapy

[iLikeFrogs]

I managed to live long enought to go to a psychotherapy appt last thursday and am scheduled this week too. It's scary frankly and I'm terrified of going back. I don't know why I feel like this, I always thought that going back to it will help me, but now that I did go back it makes me feel scared of progressing. I'm not sure what to do to make myself feel a tiny bit more brave before this thursday; only thing coming to my mind is drinking and maybe a cig but it won't help me in a long run :/ it just feels so weird and alien to me

 

[Ch4in3dcr0w]

steer away from drinking to help u feel more brave dont become depented on alcohol but as a fellow nicotine addict i can (not) recommend a cig. Your fear is completly valid and normal when i was in theraphy i was completly against it and refusing any form of help or engaging with my therapist because just like you i was scared of making progress and changing what felt like a fundemental trait of myself. It changes with more sessions and the fear slowly fear whats most important is just pushing through it. Good luck and much love

 

[Dingusguy]

I think I know the feeling, it feels strange and even scary trying to move forward. I think it is because we grow accustomed to the pit we let ourselves sit in, it doesn't feel good but it feels familiar.
Going out of your comfort zone and all that. I personally just throw the "it couldn't make it worse" argument at myself to make myself attempt something. THAT or I do exactly what you mentioned, drink a bit.

Either way I don't know you but I do hope whatever you do it helps you move forward