Finally at peace

[mortuarymary]

It's taken weeks of running around trying to find out what happened to my friend who died.
Finally today I saw a man walking his dog. Holly was my friends dog. Apparently he ended up in hospital with cancer in his other leg, the other one had been amputated. He also was HIV. He was in great pain for a long time, especially with the cancer. He decided not to amputate the leg and said even with HIV he'd had a good life and now wanted peace.
I can't stop crying because while all this was happening, I had my own battle and didn't know this had happened.
i feel so guilty. I will miss his sick sense of humor. Rest in peace Michael xxx

 

[pasho25000]

dont feel guilty you friend knew you loved him
that's all that matters
we all have our difficulties don't be hard on yourself

 

[Raven2]

You have some closure, understanding what happened to him at the end. Rest in peace to your friend. Hope you will take it easy on yourself.

 

[Quantum Particle]

I am so very sorry for your loss but please do not feel guilty. He was in pain and I'm sure he knew your heart was with him x

 

[unabletocope]

Sorry for your friend and your struggle, I'm sure he would feel blessed knowing he knew someone was asking after him, I'm sure you were a great friend to him

 

[Blue Elephant]

I'm happy that your friend found peace and at the same time I'm sorry that you're lonelier without him now. :hugs:

 

[hopeless08]

It's taken weeks of running around trying to find out what happened to my friend who died.
Finally today I saw a man walking his dog. Holly was my friends dog. Apparently he ended up in hospital with cancer in his other leg, the other one had been amputated. He also was HIV. He was in great pain for a long time, especially with the cancer. He decided not to amputate the leg and said even with HIV he'd had a good life and now wanted peace.
I can't stop crying because while all this was happening, I had my own battle and didn't know this had happened.
i feel so guilty. I will miss his sick sense of humor. Rest in peace Michael xxx

Omg your story is heartbreaking. I'm sorry for your loss and I know it's not much of a condolence since you are grieving but remember that he is no longer suffering and is at peace. It's bittersweet.
You should definitely not feel guilty as you had no idea what was going on. There's no way you could have known.
It's not your fault. It seems you've been nothing but an amazing friend to him and know that he knows that.