Discussion Final pushes to end things.

[Manic Panic]

Why is it so hard to ctb ? Why can't I just snap my fingers and just die? Why do I keep having to suffer and just constantly hurting people ?

I don't want help I just want to die .

Can someone talk to me about this , I feel so alone right now.

 

[cioran.legend]

Hi, I'd also like to just snap my finger and die, that would be amazing. I don't think you'll hurt anyone, but if that's what you're thinking, I'm sure it's not with any bad intentions. Don't be so hard on yourself.
Nice avatar by the way

 

[Pure Vanilla]

it'd be nice if it was that easy but sadly this is the way things are

 

[bankai]

I don't believe in God, but few months ago when things were really bad I used to just ask the universe to take me. I used to say a little prayer when I went to bed wishing to just pass on in my sleep. Well, that didn't happen, obviously.


Partial hanging was my go to method, but when I tried it I just knew my survival instinct was so high I couldn't go through with it. Now I'm just staying around waiting.for what I'm not sure.

 

[Darkover]

Why is it so hard to ctb ? Why can't I just snap my fingers and just die?

governments make it so difficult to leave by restricting peaceful methods

even if you could click your finger and die there wouldn't be many of you around because your ancestors wouldn't of reproduced before dying if individuals could die instantaneously without reproducing, the lineage would eventually be extinguished If individuals cannot pass on their genetic material, their lineage is terminated

 

[Angel999]

The more in pain you are the more desperate you are the harder it is in my case. You can crawl and endure the unendurable agony for years if you end up in a loop of not being able to CTB, eventually life will destroy and kill you itself.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand, I just wish to be free from all the suffering as well, all I want is to never suffer ever again and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence I always saw as a mistake, I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like falling into an eternal dreamless sleep so finally I can be at peace.