So maybe Adderall alone wouldnt be enough to kill even in the very large dose of 2000mg that I took because I've been on it for 10 years. But I hear stories of people overdosing on it and dying all the time, and it's such a hassle to get every month (even though it's prescribed to me by a doctor) because it's supposed to be so dangerous. So I feel like it at least should have done worse than what it did, and honestly, if I can't die, then being completely disabled would be the next best option at this point. I just can't do anything that takes a ton of guts. I'm going to try really hard to get my hands on some fentanyl. This is going to be very difficult because I have NO friends who could hook me up, but I do have some cousins who are on it and they have overdosed and came extremely close to dying more times than I can count, the only reason they are still here is because someone found them just in time to call an ambulance. That won't be an issue for me because I live alone and can go days without speaking to someone. Anyways, I'm literally just going to go through my cousin's social media friends and message them from an anonymous account asking if they could sell. I know that is extremely risky but I just absolutely don't know what else to do anymore.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
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That sounds like a horrible situation to be in, I hate how hard it is to die, and I see those who are able to access peaceful suicide methods as being very fortunate. It's incredibly unfair how we have to suffer so much to leave this world, we deserve the option to just pass away in peace but anyway I hope that you find what you are searching for.
