Discussion Fellow suicidal partners, how do you deal with the fact that your families are affected?

[montanatype]

Let's say, once you're involved with the knowledge of another family, another union, other lives, how can they bear such an emotional burden? Now it's not just the weight of their own burden, don't they feel guilt? What if I'm affecting the other person? What if that person could live happily without me?
Don't they think about that? Or perhaps it's just a union of broken souls, a necessary little push, something inevitable?
Perhaps it can be seen that way too, but I can't help feeling guilty, precisely because my whole life I've tried to disappear from other people's lives, so as not to cause pain with my possible end.

 

[bananaolympus]

Is like the old who is being selfish? Question, i don't care who is it tbh i do have a loving family but i live everyday questioning is if is worth living one more day, the least i can do is not trying a anything on a special day like somebody birthday, christmas etc

 

[ummagumma]

im feeling guilty too. at first i hoped that my close ones will get over my ctb, but after my attempt i see that their lifes will be forever ruined. so i plan to stay here as long as i can, even if it means suffering

 

[AnonymousL]

You don't.
Feeling that guilt destroys you.

You gotta push it aside.

At first grief is very big. But as time goes on it becomes smaller. They find a way to live with it.
They'll never forget you. That's for sure. But they won't break down in tears when they think about you every time.

 

[metfan647]

By defiantly disregarding any single thought of the aftermath if it creeps through. It doesn't often though, truth be told.

I have a close family member who is pretty rancorous and very sensitive. They were very vengeful and bitter during my youger years of being recalcitrant and mischievous. They'd punish me for inordinate periods through silence. This was hard as a youngster. I'd probably instigate a few uncomfortable conversations before I go in the slight hope it might make them have some bitterness towards me than just dispair and sadness.

In all honesty though, I wouldn't struggle too much with suicide.