im socially retarded, i cant hold any sort of normal job, i cant focus, someone needs to pretty much take care of me for the rest of my life because im so childish and unaware of my surroundings . id rather be taken care of by God because i can never burden him
I relate with you a lot. I am unable to function in this world. I think I never realised how much until I lost my dream job. I do not understand people and I am unable to communicate with them. I do not get all these non-verbal clues people talk about. I wish people could just say clearly what they have in mind without using sarcasm, irony or sentences that mean another thing. I only get nervous and start screaming at people.
I lost all friends due to these reasons. Some of them endured a lot from me but I just tend to escalate every situation and eventually they all abandoned me. I do not date because I do not have anything interesting to offer to a woman. I do not know how to pick conversation topics and in general I do not have any topic to discuss. I have a wife that is next to me, but that is only because she also does not have any ambition in her life. She appears happy however, she has literally nothing in her life but she still smiles.
I do not travel or go in hoolidays because I am unable to handle any little problems that may happen. For example a tran was late and I escalated the situation to the point the had to call police. This happen to me everytime, I start interacting with people and after a bit I am screaming at them.
