Elle

Elle

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Jul 9, 2023
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I don't know what to do anymore. I'm at breaking point. It's 00:47am right now and I am really fucking struggling. I wanna die. But I can't let my rapist win. But it's so hard living with this. I'm so stupid 😭
 
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_Alfarooq_

_Alfarooq_

Useless bastard almost making the decision to CTB.
Jul 24, 2023
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I don't know what to do anymore. I'm at breaking point. It's 00:47am right now and I am really fucking struggling. I wanna die. But I can't let my rapist win. But it's so hard living with this. I'm so stupid 😭
In what way are you struggling? I'm struggling to cope with being a failure in this world. But why did you say rapist? And win at what?

I'm stupid as well for still having the audacity to continue existing in this life.
 
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Lulzacruel

Lulzacruel

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Jun 13, 2023
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If you are open to chatting with someone about your experience, you can try RAINN. I hear that they are pretty good for sources when it comes to people who are raped to either cope or seek legal action on the perpetrator.

Get some Z's, it will clear your mind and then you can make an informed decision.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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It must be dreadful and tiring feeling trapped in that situation, it's truly so horrible how humans create so much harm in this world. But anyway best wishes.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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You're not stupid at all. I think anyone would struggle with the trauma of that. I'm so sorry. I hope you can settle your mind soon. I have to listen to stuff to get to sleep. It helps to stop me worrying. YouTube has loads of stuff- guided meditations, rain and nature sounds. Not everyone likes it but ASMR. You could try that.
 
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Sweet Tart

Sweet Tart

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May 10, 2023
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I hope the rapist knows they are a POS and that they lose sleep over it for the rest of their life. A friend who was raped many years ago continues to have severe insomnia and stress at night. They are not open to groups, any type of peer support, or therapy but they take lots of meds and it has only been a little helpful.

Idk if you've already explored outside supports or if you are open to it, but like @Lulzacruel mentioned, there are 24-hour hotlines and online forums to talk to people about what you are going thru, if you want to.
 
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