Help Feeling sad

[Nem]

Hi,
I have written about how I got messed up by meds etc and how my fiance was at times controlling and lacked empathy.
I also feel quite sad how this all turned out. My fiance and I had a lot of love for each other and when I had made a plan to die and she picked me up from the hospital...I should have given her a hug. But, I was so numb from feeling so rough for such a long time after the reaction/withdrawals.
When we got home from the hospital, the only thing my fiance said was I was now sleeping on the couch. This was a clear sign that things were over and she screamed at me everyday until I moved out.
I thought she would've been more supportive but obviously not, I guess I shouldn't have been surprised but it was still shocking. The starting of meds was initiated by a coworker offering me some of his valium in which I should've turned down. This freaking sucks.

 

[Wantingpeace]

Hi,
I have written about how I got messed up by meds etc and how my fiance was at times controlling and lacked empathy.
I also feel quite sad how this all turned out. My fiance and I had a lot of love for each other and when I had made a plan to die and she picked me up from the hospital...I should have given her a hug. But, I was so numb from feeling so rough for such a long time after the reaction/withdrawals.
When we got home from the hospital, the only thing my fiance said was I was now sleeping on the couch. This was a clear sign that things were over and she screamed at me everyday until I moved out.
I thought she would've been more supportive but obviously not, I guess I shouldn't have been surprised but it was still shocking. The starting of meds was initiated by a coworker offering me some of his valium in which I should've turned down. This freaking sucks.

Yes so damaged and now dismissed by people around us, drs most people. I'm just devastated too.

 

[Nanimoaru]

I feel the same way. I'm damaged goods and I just want to go out not feeling anything.

 

[Nem]

I feel the same way. I'm damaged goods and I just want to go out not feeling anything.

I completely understand how you feel. It's tough when you feel defeated like this, it's very unfair and it's something only the individual can truly understand.

 

[Wantingpeace]

I completely understand how you feel. It's tough when you feel defeated like this, it's very unfair and it's something only the individual can truly understand.

Yes

 

[Nem]

Yes so damaged and now dismissed by people around us, drs most people. I'm just devastated too.

I'm sorry to hear and I wish it never happened to any of us that were just looking for help.

 

[Nanimoaru]

I completely understand how you feel. It's tough when you feel defeated like this, it's very unfair and it's something only the individual can truly understand.

I really thought this world would change but it just stays the same