Feeling really down, want some comfort

[sohopelessandempty]

I want to die as always(can't ctb for many reasons, saying this just because I get paranoid about people thinking I died or something). Every day is so unbearable, I just want to be comforted from all this suffering. I'm so sad all the time and I feel helpless and like there's nothing I can do about it. That because I can't ctb, I will feel this way until I die of old age. I've tried but I can't accept a life of such pain but I'm not sure what to do then. I don't really have a choice, it's complicated. Just really upset about current suffering and also the knowledge that I'll suffer the rest of my life. I just want it all to go away. I'm in so much pain. I'm going to bed now, hopefully I get some sweet replies that I'll see later.

 

[Arvayn]

You have all my best sympathies that one day your circumstances will change and you'll be free of your current situation, whatever it is. We've already talked before, so I'd just be repeating myself. I truly wish I could do more to help you.

You will never be truly helpless; you are choosing to be here every single moment you still breathe, and you have the agency to decide your own behavior. Again, that is a commendable act in itself. Love yourself and hold your cherished ones close; you are sweet too and I'm sure that you bring joy to your friends.

The pain bringing you down is just mental. You are the master of your fate and the captain of your soul!