Venting Feeling lost

[GlutenFreeCat]

Anxiety is especially bad today. Intrusive thoughts keep telling me I'm a POS that needs to hurry up and die.

Desperately wish I had someone to talk to that even somewhat understands these feelings. I feel so fucking isolated from everything and everyone. Listening to people at work talk and laugh and generally have a good time while I'm wishing I could just feel normal and laugh along with them. Trying to keep it together and not burst into tears out of nowhere makes me so exhausted.

 

[cryone]

hey, if you ever want someone to talk to you can always PM me. im not the best at convos though. I've been in a similar scenario as you, but the "people" just don't feel like including me.

 

[Sleeper System]

Anxiety is especially bad today. Intrusive thoughts keep telling me I'm a POS that needs to hurry up and die.

Desperately wish I had someone to talk to that even somewhat understands these feelings. I feel so fucking isolated from everything and everyone. Listening to people at work talk and laugh and generally have a good time while I'm wishing I could just feel normal and laugh along with them. Trying to keep it together and not burst into tears out of nowhere makes me so exhausted.

Sounds just like me. I feel like i'm usually the most miserable person in a room.
Either that or everyone is faking really well and im just not as good as them.
I often just want to leave work and crawl into bed and just let life pass me by.

 

[GlutenFreeCat]

Sounds just like me. I feel like i'm usually the most miserable person in a room.
Either that or everyone is faking really well and im just not as good as them.
I often just want to leave work and crawl into bed and just let life pass me by.

I used to take refuge in sleep but recently the inability to fall asleep and then, if I am lucky enough to fall asleep, intense episodes of sleep paralysis have robbed me of that.

 

[Sleeper System]

I used to take refuge in sleep but recently the inability to fall asleep and then, if I am lucky enough to fall asleep, intense episodes of sleep

Sleeping and eating is the only comfort I have. That and being on here and little hobbies.

 

[GlutenFreeCat]

Sleeping and eating is the only comfort I have. That and being on here and little hobbies.

I'm happy you have at least a few little things to give you comfort