Venting feeling like shit.

[liz!!!!!]

i just wanna say the right thing. it kills me that i can't be better. i wanna hold a conversation. i want to be able to make eye contact. i want to make people happy but I seek comfort in intrusive thoughts. i just want to bash my head into a desk until the blunt force kills me. i want to not..suck. i want to be a better person but i always hurt people when they love me too much. i'm so fucking stupid that i don't even know how to express how i feel without violence. i don't want to hurt inside anymore. there's no one around when you need them. i'm gonna stop typing how because my tears are getting all over and making it hard to type

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds really tiring and painful what you have to go through, I'm sorry that you suffer like this, I think that it's true that you cannot rely on other people but anyway I wish you the best.