Venting Feeling like a bad person for prioritizing myself

[リンさん]

The world seems to be burning up in flames, there are wars and injustice happening in so many places. I tried so hard to be a good person and keep up with the information, but it only made me feel even more depressed and useless.

I can't call myself a good person, because I don't do anything about it. I can't keep a job or even figure out my own stuff first, but all of it feels pointless. I feel horrible for even trying to come up with excuses for myself and why I keep doing nothing to help those people I don't even know.

I don't want anyone to suffer, I don't want people to die, yet I feel like such a tiny and insignificant person. I know I can probably do something, yet I don't. All of it makes me feel like the worst, most useless, selfish human being.

I feel like the world will be a better place if I die. Or at the very least, I will stop feeling so much shame and guilt.

 

[deadwalkid]

You are not making anyone suffer, my friend.
It's not your faul that this world is so cruel. Please don't beat yourself up, we never choose or want it to be this way.

 

[Mirrory Me]

It is difficult to help others if there are no resources for it. That's why it's maybe worth just supporting bigger organizations that make it their job.

 

[333s]

you cant somehow save even one person from all the suffering they experience except actually killing them,,
while man lives he determined to suffer even if he is from the wealthiest family in the most developed country of the world
i know what you're talking about and, even if it's egoistic to say so, completely understand what you feel
yesterday died one of the most important opposition leaders in my country while being in prison for confronting current government and it's sad
i couldn't even go to mourn him because of how devastated i felt
this country will never get better
but other people will be happy bc of his death because that's what they think is right…
i thought a lot about it and started to feel less bad when convinced myself that unfairness will be a part of human world no matter what
so in the dry residue i should be happy about his death too as the death of anyone else which is very unnatural
but somehow yep thats right..

 

[logi3535]

this world can be so cruel, it is never your fault for simply wanting to do the right thing in a world of obstacles and problems, you are never insignificant either, even just wishing to take away the pain of others is admirable, its rare to come across anyone who genuinelly wants to help others