I've been trying not to post with feelings. I know that is more about managing my feelings than moving to an outcome. But my feelings are getting intense
I want so badly to be gone, to escape the massive problem I have. Everyday I see more of the "no way out, trapped" scenario. I honestly feel like screaming on a regular basis
I have one ingredient of my plan purchased. The other two are harder for me to acquire to make the process easier and more comfortable. I'm not confident I'll be able to acquire those additional items. So I have a question whether I should attempt if I don't have all of the recommended medications
I also live with another person and we are here together most of the time. I need the other person to have a known absence...perhaps a day trip to another city in order to have enough time at my home. TBH, I wish they had an interest in accompanying me, but they don't. So I can't create any suspicion with them. I'm concerned this will be hard to arrange.
I am avoiding a hotel because I don't want any claims for damage that my exit might make to come against my estate. And I just don't think I'd find enough privacy in the outdoors. (Gun people have the advantage here with once and done..my method need me to lie down for hours)
In my mind I just want to grab the product and gulp it down right now. Leave all the shit behind. But I know I can't do that.
I guess I have work to do to be ready. I hate to be whiny, but I need to be whiny.
Welcome your responses, whether they are logistical or just your own experience. Or, just a magic spell that helps me get out of here.
I want so badly to be gone, to escape the massive problem I have. Everyday I see more of the "no way out, trapped" scenario. I honestly feel like screaming on a regular basis
I have one ingredient of my plan purchased. The other two are harder for me to acquire to make the process easier and more comfortable. I'm not confident I'll be able to acquire those additional items. So I have a question whether I should attempt if I don't have all of the recommended medications
I also live with another person and we are here together most of the time. I need the other person to have a known absence...perhaps a day trip to another city in order to have enough time at my home. TBH, I wish they had an interest in accompanying me, but they don't. So I can't create any suspicion with them. I'm concerned this will be hard to arrange.
I am avoiding a hotel because I don't want any claims for damage that my exit might make to come against my estate. And I just don't think I'd find enough privacy in the outdoors. (Gun people have the advantage here with once and done..my method need me to lie down for hours)
In my mind I just want to grab the product and gulp it down right now. Leave all the shit behind. But I know I can't do that.
I guess I have work to do to be ready. I hate to be whiny, but I need to be whiny.
Welcome your responses, whether they are logistical or just your own experience. Or, just a magic spell that helps me get out of here.
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