Lately, there have been multiple events that have been brought up to me..either I've been invited to or family have said "I saw this and thought of you". Whenever this happens I get a horrible heavy feeling in my chest. Of longing to experience these things and also knowing I probably won't be alive for them. I feel so guilty when I say "maybe, I'll see how I feel" or just straight up "no thanks". I want to act excited, the initial me is excited. This has been especially with concerts. A couple of my favourite artists announced going on tour and I feel immense guilt about acting uninterested when it was mentioned.
I don't know what this means..I don't know if I'm making the right devision yet..I don't know if this means I look forward to life.
I don't know what this means..I don't know if I'm making the right devision yet..I don't know if this means I look forward to life.
