mono
I hope my last breath is a sigh of relief.
- Jul 11, 2023
- 49
I love having my friensd and family in my life but having them around makes it feel nearly impossible to ctb. I know it's my own decision and no one can stop me but I still can't help but feel so overwhelmingly guilty about leaving them all behind and causing harm to them mentally. Especially with my parents. I'm an only child so if I die my parents won't have another child to kind of dull out the feeling of losing one,they would literally lose their only child and be left with nothing. But if I were to just abandon everyone with no explanation as to why until I ctb? That just seems too selfish of me. And even then, I too would be left alone which is something I fear the most.