Family member died before CTB.

[iloveloving]

I was planning on CTB soon, but now my grandparent have passed. It's really weighing down my family, especially my mother. Now I must wait. It would be too much for them if I followed so soon.

This is so so hard for me to stay any longer.

 

[Roseate]

I'm sorry. It sounds like a horrible situation. It's a horrible timing.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

They way you think is understandable - it's human. I'm sorry for your loss and you have to go through this now.

But actually you don't owe them anything you must be in such terrible pain that you see no way out of your pain but to kys. What can your parents/family do to easy your pain and suffering? May I ask why you wanna die so badly?

 

[iloveloving]

They way you think is understandable - it's human. I'm sorry for your loss and you have to go through this now.

But actually you don't owe them anything you must be in such terrible pain that you see no way out of your pain but to kys. What can your parents/family do to easy your pain and suffering? May I ask why you wanna die so badly?

To live for others was hurting me, I had to do something for myself. I don't want to live miserably and to pass away would be saving myself. I have always pleased and helped others, but I never received the love and care I have given. That's all I want, to be loved and cared for.

Thank you.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

To live for others was hurting me, I had to do something for myself. I don't want to live miserably and to pass away would be saving myself. I have always pleased and helped others, but I never received the love and care I have given. That's all I want, to be loved and cared for.

Thank you.

I send you a BIG HUG

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly understand that it's so dreadful having to suffer in this existence, I imagine that must be a tiring situation to be in. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[kyhoti]

Bless you for having the compassion to wait. May you find the peace you seek.

 

[maynoname]

Terrible timing. I'm sorry for your loss. Whatever you decide, we support you. Big hug through the screen.

 

[uglyugly]

To live for others was hurting me, I had to do something for myself. I don't want to live miserably and to pass away would be saving myself. I have always pleased and helped others, but I never received the love and care I have given. That's all I want, to be loved and cared for.

Thank you.

I can certainly identify with this. I've spent my whole damn life trying to please others and rarely have anything in return. It's quite depressing. I spent 9 weeks out of work last year caring for a family member - giving up my life, my home, my pets and my own place during that time and it STILL wasn't good enough for them. Living to please others never works, IMO. Some simply don't care, others don't see the sacrifices and still others will outright crap on the person doing the caring.

I'm sorry about your grandparent and I hope you can find peace.

 

[iloveloving]

I can certainly identify with this. I've spent my whole damn life trying to please others and rarely have anything in return. It's quite depressing. I spent 9 weeks out of work last year caring for a family member - giving up my life, my home, my pets and my own place during that time and it STILL wasn't good enough for them. Living to please others never works, IMO. Some simply don't care, others don't see the sacrifices and still others will outright crap on the person doing the caring.

I'm sorry about your grandparent and I hope you can find peace.

Then some have the nerve to say it's selfish!

I'm glad you understand

 

[DoneWithThisLife]

I'm so sorry for your loss. You have been thrust into a very difficult position. Sending you hugs.