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When you've made the decision to CTB have you started to feel "better"? I've made the decision and I feel really good....almost peaceful.
 
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I feel that the decision hasn't really been made until the act is finally committed. Before then, one's mood may change to follow a different path. Maybe some people (maybe you?) just reach a point where they are certain beyond any doubt that they will go ahead with it, but personally I recognise in myself an uncertainty beyond my control, that may cause me to withdraw at any point. However, I have felt a definite kind of relief in realising that ctb is not immoral or shameful.
 
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I feel that the decision hasn't really been made until the act is finally committed. Before then, one's mood may change to follow a different path. Maybe some people (maybe you?) just reach a point where they are certain beyond any doubt that they will go ahead with it, but personally I recognise in myself an uncertainty beyond my control, that may cause me to withdraw at any point. However, I have felt a definite kind of relief in realising that ctb is not immoral or shameful.

Thanks for that insight. Definitely appreciate it.
 
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I felt a sense of relief knowing that the day was coming but after the first couple of dates I set came and went and I set new ones, that feeling disappeared.
 
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When you've made the decision to CTB have you started to feel "better"? I've made the decision and I feel really good....almost peaceful.
That's actually very normal.
 
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