Venting Feeling 1000 times worse after failed attempt — why?

[whybother2002]

I failed an OD 2 months ago. In the following day, when I was in the hospital, I had the tiny bit of hope that life could only become better and better - I reached my lowest point after all. But In the following month it's just been hell. Not only I've gotten worse, everyday is a new low. Now I understand why failed attempts lead to more attempts and then death: it's the deep disappointment in learning that you will not experience a turnaround.

 

[Hiro Uchiha]

That's true for me too. Unfortunately, failed attempts just make things worse for me. It's exhausting, and things aren't getting better. I feel you.

 

[MyShadow]

In my case, it's a lack of support. Knowing that I am alone makes life unbearable and keeps bringing me back here because this forum is the only place that I can express my pain and isolation. But, this is an echo chamber that not only reminds me of my own suffering but reinforces the suicidal ideation. It's an endless cycle with only one logical conclusion.

 

[lilies.in.heaven]

I wish you good recovery from this attempt, I'm sorry things didn't go as planned

If I may ask, what did you take in your OD?

 

[whybother2002]

I wish you good recovery from this attempt, I'm sorry things didn't go as planned

If I may ask, what did you take in your OD?

alprazolam and diazepam