feel so selfish

[wildflowers1996]

I'm not ctb to help others
I'm doing it for selfish reasons despite knowing it will hurt others

I feel so guilty (but apparently not guilty enough not to do it)

I hate myself for not loving my family enough
They're going to think I didn't care about them

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Whether you ctb or not has no bearing on how much you love your family. Also, a lot of people ctb for selfish reasons. There is nothing to feel bad about. It's fine to be a bit selfish. You are human and an aspect to being human is being a bit selfish.

 

[i love you]

I struggle with this a lot too. Guilt seems to be the only thing stopping me from ctb. I'm an only child, but recently I've found myself wishing I had a sibling that was better than me at everything. It sounds stupid, but it would make ctb so much easier.