Venting Feel like cutting myself but I am afraid to do so.

[Marsoff]

Hello.

After so many years of not being able to get a job, I got finally accepted at a Job Centre for people with disabilities, but I think the cost of adjusting to routine is too much for me.

I really feel like cutting myself, hurting myself.

I normally have a psychologist on thursdays, but he is on vacation.

 

[dexdbxtchthewxtch]

Terribly hypocritical of me, but I wouldn't start if you aren't already in the habit of sh or are thinking of relapsing.
I have been cutting for years on and off and it does you no good, that's for sure. May be temporary relief but the risks far out weigh any 'benefit' you seek from harming yourself. It won't help. It only causes more issues.
Maybe try a rubber band on your arm. That's what I used to do in a bind.

 

[Marsoff]

No way. I am already terrified of blood tests. I am already terrified of hurting and seeing lots of blood.

 

[SoulWhisperer]

No way. I am already terrified of blood tests. I am already terrified of hurting and seeing lots of blood.

I feel the same exact experience as you...

 

[soonnotkoei]

Terribly hypocritical of me, but I wouldn't start if you aren't already in the habit of sh or are thinking of relapsing.
I have been cutting for years on and off and it does you no good, that's for sure. May be temporary relief but the risks far out weigh any 'benefit' you seek from harming yourself. It won't help. It only causes more issues.
Maybe try a rubber band on your arm. That's what I used to do in a bind.

+1.
i haven't ever cut myself (and will never hopefully) because i think it's a bad idea. first things first, you are actively injuring yourself which is not ideal but ive also read from other people that it can be addictive; as in cutting every time you're even slightly stressed. plus cutting leaves scars so there's that.

ofcourse ultimately it's up to you what you want to do but i just wanted to present my view.
peace and good luck.

 

[Marsoff]

+1.
i haven't ever cut myself (and will never hopefully) because i think it's a bad idea. first things first, you are actively injuring yourself which is not ideal but ive also read from other people that it can be addictive; as in cutting every time you're even slightly stressed. plus cutting leaves scars so there's that.

ofcourse ultimately it's up to you what you want to do but i just wanted to present my view.
peace and good luck.

I much rather think about wanting to cut myself and always hesitate about it.

 

[soonnotkoei]

I much rather think about wanting to cut myself and always hesitate about it.

ofcourse you're gonna hesitate, you're body won't let you hurt yourself so easily. that's a good thing for me when it comes to self harm since i too am too afraid to do it but not very ideal when i actually want to ctb. fucking SI.