Fear of SN, but even more fear of life

[Lebensmüde]

Hello everyone.
I live in Germany and have to use Google Translate.

First of all, thank you for having this community.


I read a report of a live-streamed CTB:

22:45 SN
22:49 Started one last cigarette
22:50 Nausea sets in
22:50 Dizziness sets in
22:51 puked a little in a plastic bag
22:52 fell over, no longer responds to sounds
22:53 tries to say something, body twitches
22:54 unconscious, shallow breathing
22:55 more cramps, breathing becomes more difficult
22:58 is barely breathing now
23:02 Does it seem like he's breathing more evenly now?
23:04 he's somehow still breathing
23:07 is still breathing, albeit slowly. not conscious
23:10 no more breathing (I'm not 100% sure)
23:18 no movement at all, we think he's resting now

The mention of cramps and twitching scares me.
Likewise, breathing for a long time.
I'm afraid of consciously feeling the suffocation.
But SN is my method now that I'm hanging
I canceled twice and didn't see any other option.

Can someone help me relieve my fear of suffocation?

I thank you

 

[sadyogi]

I'm not familiar with the video, but it's a possibility the solution ratio/concentration was off or their supply wasn't pure enough

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Welcome to SaSu!

Well, you should use Benzos to calm down (that's suggested in the protocol). However, you probably won't pass out bc the Benzos are knocking you out rather it's the effects of SN. You'll be short of breath, probably feel tachycardia. People who were rescued said despite those effect the process was peaceful.

You won't feel suffocation in terms of CO2 increase or strangling.

 

[Lebensmüde]

I'm not familiar with the video, but it's a possibility the solution ratio/concentration was off or their supply wasn't pure enough

This is what this post is about.
The brave man allowed himself to be filmed here for this community.

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sanctioned-suicide.net

Welcome to SaSu!

Well, you should use Benzos to calm down (that's suggested in the protocol). However, you probably won't pass out bc the Benzos are knocking you out rather it's the effects of SN. You'll be short of breath, probably feel tachycardia. People who were rescued said despite those effect the process was peaceful.

You won't feel suffocation in terms of CO2 increase or strangling.

Thank You.
Unfortunately, I only have access to medications that are available over the counter. So without a prescription

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you eventually find peace from all the suffering, best wishes.