Discussion Fear of living?

[restingplace]

I don't think my friends or anyone in my life truly understands my pain and my mindset. To be fair I don't understand it fully myself. I fear life itself, the prospect of living day to day even if I were happy is so dreadful and existential.

Does anyone else feel this way? I also want to know peoples thoughts on what happens after death. I'm the kind of person that's inclined to believe the more scientific side of things but I was wondering if there's anyone who has any other beliefs?

 

[Cosmophobic]

I do feel this way. I feel trapped in a cage and even though I fear what's within the confines of it I'm also conditioned to fear getting out of it.

Generally I think consciousness stops after death. The basic materialist worldview. I want this to be true. I do however have morbid fears that it could be wrong.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

i fear life and the unbearable pain and extreme suffering life and this world can impose on me .

i do fear a failing a suicide attempt and remaining alive with more brain damage or more damage or pain during a suicide attempt . i don't fear Death because during Death / non-existence forever i can't feel pain nor have problems . 1 micro second after my brain dies i will cease to exist forever.

i don't fear Death. how can i fear something that will solve all my problems instantly and forever. something that will guarantee i never suffer nor feel pain nothing bad ever again. I'm sure after Death is non-existence forever. it will be like the time before i was born. for 13.8 billion years before i was born every second i didn't have a problem that i didn't exist , i couldn't suffer nor care about anything i didn't have any problems . the big problems began for me only after they birthed me into this horrible evil world as an always hungry animal that can suffer extremely with constant needs. who would prefer that state to the state of non-existence ? If i go back to the year 1859 i didn't exist . and i didn't have all these problems then . i didn't have the threat of extreme torture. every second of the 13.8 billion years before i was born i didn't have the slighest care or worry or problem or chance of pain. it's only when i was conceived and born with a brain that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain did the problems began for me every day after i was born i lived under threat of extreme torture, having to feed myself sevaral times a day , drink water, chores, work ... but i don't want to do any of that crap. Death would free me from a horrible situation and any future suffering or any old age any disease that could befall me .

 

[meltskelt]

I don't think my friends or anyone in my life truly understands my pain and my mindset. To be fair I don't understand it fully myself. I fear life itself, the prospect of living day to day even if I were happy is so dreadful and existential.

Does anyone else feel this way? I also want to know peoples thoughts on what happens after death. I'm the kind of person that's inclined to believe the more scientific side of things but I was wondering if there's anyone who has any other beliefs?

I want to believe that once we die there won't be anything after, imagine having to do this again?? But it is very scary that we might just have another life and suffer more because we ctb :/ No one really cares about how you feel and what you fear and that makes life complicated... Makes you hate waking up and having to do everything alone and without knowing whats happening

I do feel this way. I feel trapped in a cage and even though I fear what's within the confines of it I'm also conditioned to fear getting out of it.

Generally I think consciousness stops after death. The basic materialist worldview. I want this to be true. I do however have morbid fears that it could be wrong.

true, it was also why I got scared when tried to do it myself
the " what if?" part

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, I also fear suffering in this dreadful and torturous existence, it's so terrifying to me how a human can exist for so long with no limit as to how much they can be tortured, all I want is to be gone, I just want to be free from it all, I just hope and wish to never suffer again.

For me simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death, I always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence, I'll always believe death to be nothing more than non-existence which is all I wish and hope for, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity with this existence finally all gone and forgotten.

 

[MatiSendiri]

Idk if this is related but the concept of ghosts is actually far more disturbing than reincarnation imo. In reincarnation you could be something else in a new life. But ghosts? Idk I just really feel that'd suck when you ctb and just letting the world passes without you and just makes you a wanderer in the world that you hate yourselves.