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cloudnone

cloudnone

So Scribble Me Out
Jan 14, 2020
55
How do you get over fear of CTB?

My life is beyond awful. I have a painful disease that will likely leave me disabled at some point, I have nobody that cares about me, and I wouldn't ever want to find love knowing that I'd just end up being a burden eventually with how bad my physical state will be. Basically, things are terrible and I know they will never get better.

I want to CTB. But I'm afraid of it. How do you get over that fear?
 
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BeansOfRequirement

BeansOfRequirement

Man-child, loser, autistic, etc.
Jan 26, 2021
5,806
and I wouldn't ever want to find love knowing that I'd just end up being a burden eventually with how bad my physical state will be.
It's a need, not a want.
I want to CTB. But I'm afraid of it. How do you get over that fear?
By having a shitty life, not something you pick up at the store.
 
cloudnone

cloudnone

So Scribble Me Out
Jan 14, 2020
55
It's a need, not a want.

By having a shitty life, not something you pick up at the store.

Need or not, it wouldn't be fair to ask that of someone.

I do have a very shitty life. Like, there's genuinely no reason for me to go on. It's a deep primal fear, not a "I have a reason to go on and will miss something" fear.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,449
I believe that I will eventually reach a point of desperation, where I cannot take anymore of this life and I cannot think past the thoughts of suicide. I will know it is time to leave deep down and I will have no more fears. I think for me it is also the fear of failing a method that holds me back. Ctb is difficult as we are programmed to survive. If it was easier, I would already be gone. We all deserve the option of euthanasia.
 
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BeansOfRequirement

BeansOfRequirement

Man-child, loser, autistic, etc.
Jan 26, 2021
5,806
Need or not, it wouldn't be fair to ask that of someone.
Not fair to steal someone's food when you're starving, either. Doesn't get rid of the need.
 
Bedrock48

Bedrock48

Dreadful damage, dreadful destiny
Feb 1, 2021
540
How do you get over fear of CTB?

My life is beyond awful. I have a painful disease that will likely leave me disabled at some point, I have nobody that cares about me, and I wouldn't ever want to find love knowing that I'd just end up being a burden eventually with how bad my physical state will be. Basically, things are terrible and I know they will never get better.

I want to CTB. But I'm afraid of it. How do you get over that fear?

I'm sorry youre suffering in this way. Is there some sort of treatment or something that might improve things?

Getting over the fear, at least from my current view, is very much a journey. A personal one at that. For some it might look like slowly getting to it and trying to get it to lose its power, it might just be a case of waiting until you're 100% mentally and physically ready. Others choose to just power through, likely with the help of mind altering substances like drugs or alcohol. I don't think there's one easy formula but if I could give any advice is not to rush it.
 

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