Fear of go outside

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

I know it can sound strange, but literally everyone hates me and talk to my back, just because of my family, the worst i did is just some small mistake because no education, but people really trying to bully me to suicide and defamate me, i live in a really hard infamous area probably the most infamous in italy.. so i think for them its even funny bully me to suicide because of my parents mistake, also the people who want me dead are the same "friend" of my unrequited love and probably they fu** her.. really awful world

They already ruined my life enough by make me quit obbligatory school at 12/13 year old, my parents didn't even cared or the social worker, this people seems not even stop that now im 23 year old, and they have all beautiful and blessed life and get attention by my crush
If there is a God it must be evil, and when i was young i was really religious

What would u do if you were in my situation?

 

[anaerobic_bacterium]

i'd just rot. playing videogames and watching TV all day not forgetting pleasures of soft drinks ofc. well this is actually my current occupation. i'm not forced to go outside so i don't. if you can leech your parents and avoid social interaction that's maybe a way. i doubt you're important enough for bullies to make them broke into your room just to make you suffer for some reason. also i'd take it easier situations like having 'crushes' and other people who may be too unreasonably important to rent free in the head. most relationships end up in disappointment anyway

 

[Forever Sleep]

I do have anxiety in social situations. I don't like crowds but I'm not afraid to leave the house. I'm sorry you are in this situation. It sounds awful. If I were you- I'd try to get away from there. I left home at 18. I don't know how possible it is for you though. Going to uni was my 'out' but it doesn't sound like that's possible for you. I guess money is the biggest problem. Do you work? I'm guessing not. Could/ would your parents support you to move away? Do you think you'd be able to start a new life some place else? That seems like the best solution to me- although it might not be feasible. I'm sorry. It must feel very oppressive/ frightening.

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

I do have anxiety in social situations. I don't like crowds but I'm not afraid to leave the house. I'm sorry you are in this situation. It sounds awful. If I were you- I'd try to get away from there. I left home at 18. I don't know how possible it is for you though. Going to uni was my 'out' but it doesn't sound like that's possible for you. I guess money is the biggest problem. Do you work? I'm guessing not. Could/ would your parents support you to move away? Do you think you'd be able to start a new life some place else? That seems like the best solution to me- although it might not be feasible. I'm sorry. It must feel very oppressive/ frightening.

I didn't have a job, no car or money too, i dont think i can leave the house atleast for lot of years, but honestly the problem is the lack of hope, i dont want another girl to go through my defamation,family,past and bullism i know this people will probably insult and make fun of her on socials and stuff like that..

Also i dont even know if i can love another girl.. i really doubt, the idea that this people brainwashed her into hate me make me really sick, really the only thing i cared was her opinion about me..

 

[アホペンギン]

Yes, I am quite afraid to go outside, especially since its summer. I'm scared that people will look at me weirdly and i hate wearing short sleeves considering i have done SH. I would never want to go outside at 38C with pants and a jacket .

 

[No_Lxve]

Yes, I am quite afraid to go outside, especially since its summer. I'm scared that people will look at me weirdly and i hate wearing short sleeves considering i have done SH. I would never want to go outside at 38C with pants and a jacket .

I can relate so hard on that one. I literally wear hoodies in the summer for that reason.

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it so horrible how humans create so much suffering in this world, it's understandable why one would fear going outside in such a dangerous world filled with harm where there's unlimited potential to suffer endlessly, to me this world truly is such a hellish place, I certainly see humans as being the worst species.