Venting Fear of failing makes me paralyzed

[pocket7]

I wish there was 100% guarantee of death by sn. But the more I read about failed attempts, the more doubts I have. I will have only 1 chance to ctb with sn. If I fail, my parents won't trust me anymore and I'm sure they would do everything to stop me ctb next time. Also, I would probably end up in psych ward and possibly get permanent damage. That's why I can't gather up the courage and do it. But the existence is so horrible, I wish I could end it.

 

[DeIetedUser4739]

I feel the exact same.

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it so incredibly horrific how trying to die can go wrong and lead to much worse suffering, I'd also fear that, all I wish for is access to a guaranteed method that leads to painless death with no risks involved. It's really hellish and extremely cruel how people cannot just have the option of a guaranteed way to just easily die in peace but anyway I hope that you eventually find what you search for, best wishes.