Help Family might grief if I ctb, any advice?

[moya117]

I don't know anymore, at this point I'm convinced it's all my fault I am this way. I'm a lost cause. I will ctb when my mom leaves the house to meet her parents. I already have the resources and will go by sn method. I don't really know the purity and I just can't bothered to check it at this point. I just know that if I go, my mom will go crazy and there's a possibility that my little sister will be not taken care of because of that. I somehow wish my mom didn't love me, I'm such an ungrateful child. Anyway, any advice?

 

[Newfiegeorge]

Somebody loves you? You are so very fortunate. Advice: look that person in the eyes and say : I loves you.

 

[moya117]

Somebody loves you? You are so very fortunate. Advice: look that person in the eyes and say : I loves you.

I do loves them but I just can't help being here anymore, I've had enough. I just want to rest

 

[Newfiegeorge]

I'm assuming it's your family that loves you and you loves them. You owe it to them to tell them how you feel and what you're thinking about doing. Don't be afraid to talk to them. They love you unconditionally. Take care eh.

 

[VidFlumina]

I'm assuming it's your family that loves you and you loves them. You owe it to them to tell them how you feel and what you're thinking about doing. Don't be afraid to talk to them. They love you unconditionally. Take care eh.

No, OP doesn't owe them anything. Telling them what OP is trying to do can end up with OP in psych ward. What is this bullshit

 

[moya117]

No, OP doesn't owe them anything. Telling them what OP is trying to do can end up with OP in psych ward. What is this bullshit

Thank you, I really mean it

 

[Forever Sleep]

I think it's kind of near impossible to reduce a families reaction to a suicide but I guess there are things that might help.

Firstly- I'd say- try to prevent a family member from finding the body. Many people go to a hotel. Most try to block entrances and put up signs for staff to inform the police. If you CTB at home- I imagine family members would ignore a sign in a panic to see whether you're still breathing but it's bound to then stay with them. I imagine it will be hard to disassociate the room or house from your body. (Sorry.)

- I think all any of us can do is leave a note for loved ones explaining why. Trying to reassure them that there's nothing they could have done to help or stop you.

Really though- I doubt there is much we can do. Personally, I'm really hoping I can hold off until the last person that does care about me dies first. I feel like that's the ideal but not everyone can hold on for that- I understand. I'm sorry. Next to the fear of doing it, it has to be the worst thing we have to deal with.

 

[The Schizoid]

Nothing I can really do to advise you but to get you to ask the question as to whether or not you're willing to accept their grief and CTB anyway. If not, then don't CTB. If so, then it's up to you.

 

[new2blue]

Our depature will deeply effect anyone who loves us. I agree, if possible, do not let them see your body. It will be an image they never forget. Also, you should give people closure as much as possible. Spend time with them, tell them you love them, the worst that will happen is you find some more reasons to wait another day, then another, giving time a chance to heal you if at all possible. We all know the limits we are capable of. Do everything you can within that limit. You owe it to yourself to try. Yes, in time, people will move on, but it will change them, just as it would change us.

I have known two people who ended their lives. One of them was my childhood best friend. Whenever I think of him, I wonder how he must have felt. I wish I had known, not to stop him, but to tell him goodbye. I never spoke to him since we were kids.

My dad lost both his parents. It was hard on him, but he survived. I think its because he had closure. He was able to say goodbye.

 

[hellispink]

Leaving is a personal choice. I do think we need to try everything before leaving. Dont know your reasons or circumstances. If you have a person that loves you, then i guess you are lucky. I wish someone cared. Those who care will indeed hurt sadly, it is unavoidable.

 

[FuneralCry]

I guess that all that one can do is write notes or something like that, maybe this could mean that those left behind are less likely to be left with as many unanswered questions.

 

[CheekyPhobia]

The best you can do is leave messages for them explaining why it came to this and insisting they dont blame themselves. Its a sad reality but our decision to CTB requires us to put ourselves first and that final act will always lead to grief.

 

[AtomicWaffles]

Answer any questions they may have with a note or something to make sure you don't leave them in the dark but just know you never consented to exist and you don't owe anyone anything but I can understand your concern for their grief cause I have that concern too, but they will live on and recover the world won't end so just keep that in mind.

 

[moya117]

Thank you for the replies you all, I will write a note or something and do it in the bathroom with a sign and lock it.

 

[AtomicWaffles]

Thank you for the replies you all, I will write a note or something and do it in the bathroom with a sign and lock it.

Best wishes to you, I hope it goes well and you find true freedom

 

[moya117]

Best wishes to you, I hope it goes well and you find true freedom

Thank you kind stranger

 

[moya117]

So my mom found out, I was in a mental hospital for a while and I don't know what to do

 

[Praestat_Mori]

So my mom found out, I was in a mental hospital for a while and I don't know what to do

What r the consequences now? What's your mom doing?

 

[moya117]

What r the consequences now? What's your mom doing?

She's always cried when she remembers or even mentioned it and I just feel really bad rn, she slipped and said that I'm a burden but she said that she still love me, idk anymore

 

[brokenpromise]

What is it you want to do ?

At the end of the day it is your journey and no one else's but impulsiveness rarely leads to success.

I neither advocate either for nor against that is a choice only you can make

But it is important to consider all your reasoning why for and why against CTB is a final decision and one that ought not take serious time and consideration

I don't know your reasoning for it nor is it my business or anyone's to know but at the end of the day if ctb is your choice for your personal reasons then it will come down largely to time and place.

Give it some serious consideration that path and journey you want to take to find peace.



Regards
-BP

 

[moya117]

What is it you want to do ?

At the end of the day it is your journey and no one else's but impulsiveness rarely leads to success.

I neither advocate either for nor against that is a choice only you can make

But it is important to consider all your reasoning why for and why against CTB is a final decision and one that ought not take serious time and consideration

I don't know your reasoning for it nor is it my business or anyone's to know but at the end of the day if ctb is your choice for your personal reasons then it will come down largely to time and place.

Give it some serious consideration that path and journey you want to take to find peace.



Regards
-BP

Thank you for this beautiful written reply, I'll take your advice and will give some serious consideration about it again for now

 

[brokenpromise]

Thank you for this beautiful written reply, I'll take your advice and will give some serious consideration about it again for now

I'm glad to hear it :) I have been known to say it but I will say it again no matter how dark the storm the light will eventually shine through :)

Wishing you peace and happiness in your journeys

-BP