I've had family issues for a while, about as long as I've struggled badly with severe depression, self harm and masochism especially. I recently moved out of my moms house, because I couldn't get along with her, as she's always yelling and putting me down, and her new husband who I've known maybe half my life and is a completely controlling, authoritarian robot who's always enraged and who she got back together with recently. I feel like my mom has always loved men more than she's ever loved me.
I'm still living with other family at the moment at my dads, as I really have nowhere else to go or that I can, and I'm not in college or any school, as I gave my mom all of my savings for debt for her guilt tripping/ to repair our relationship, stupidly thinking it would just help and she said she'd give it back. It didn't do literally anything. I hate being around them every day, I'm convinced they all find me a nuisance for staying with them.
I want to get out of it all as soon as possible. It's painful to even be in bed every day, as I rarely even have any privacy and it hurts being around any family at all.
Sorry for the long post, I know it could be a lot worse also but it's still one of the biggest sources that fuels my being here, I wish there was a way out that was different. I didn't think I would die this young.
I'm still living with other family at the moment at my dads, as I really have nowhere else to go or that I can, and I'm not in college or any school, as I gave my mom all of my savings for debt for her guilt tripping/ to repair our relationship, stupidly thinking it would just help and she said she'd give it back. It didn't do literally anything. I hate being around them every day, I'm convinced they all find me a nuisance for staying with them.
I want to get out of it all as soon as possible. It's painful to even be in bed every day, as I rarely even have any privacy and it hurts being around any family at all.
Sorry for the long post, I know it could be a lot worse also but it's still one of the biggest sources that fuels my being here, I wish there was a way out that was different. I didn't think I would die this young.
