Falling down

[goodoldnoname923]

My best friend hates my guts and wants me dead,and loves some other geezer idek if he's genuine

My old best friend wants nothing to do with me and hates my guts too

I've literally had an old person i knew tell me i ruined there fucking life
The friend i'm closest to now is absolutely pissed at me and refuses to speak to me at all

I'm being harassed and bullied on a freaking suicide forum saying the world would be a better place without me in it,which considering the amount of people i've hurt and continue to do so couldn't be closer to the truth

I keep having these fucking spasms i can no longer control,I can't stop thinking about her I can't find enjoyment in anything i keep toturing mysekf mentally for everything i've done yet I can't seem to fucking change…I can't get fucking better and I can't be fucking happy and all i do is make people miserable

I need this to work tonight…I'm desperate for it to fucking work…

 

[Zaphkiel]

Just a thought but...

What about changing friends? Friends that let you down when things gets hard are not friends. People are also quick to point finger at so called culprit to feel better about their own shortcomings.

While i'm here for others reasons, it took me years to change my social circle, and it's better for what's left of my sanity.

 

[scarlet-pixie]

I'm being harassed and bullied on a freaking suicide forum saying the world would be a better place without me in it,which considering the amount of people i've hurt and continue to do so couldn't be closer to the truth

You're being harassed here? Who's doing this? Have you tried talking to the staff about this? I'm willing help if you're having issues doing so

 

[derpyderpins]

Just a thought but...

What about changing friends? Friends that let you down when things gets hard are not friends. People are also quick to point finger at so called culprit to feel better about their own shortcomings.

While i'm here for others reasons, it took me years to change my social circle, and it's better for what's left of my sanity.

I'll add that my closest friends are not from my first, second, or third friend group. They're people I met a little later after I'd figured out who I wanted to be. I was a real hothead asshole for a while.

 

[Roseate]

I want to understand better, why are they mad at you? Why are people telling you to kill yourself? I don't mean to imply it's your fault because I don't know the reason

 

[iloverachel]

I am so sorry you are suffering so much
We are here for you