Tried cbt this morning for first time, partial hanging. Used a belt first 2x but couldn't only caused myself to choke and SI kicked in. Found some old telephone wiring that was able to squeeze my cartoid arteries properly. Passed out after 20-30 sec but found myself awake on the floor dazed. The wire had snapped after I passed out... fucked
silence of death
Member
- May 20, 2023
- 58
im sorry to hear that, you must be very depressed..
hanging is tough, it's a very painful way to die, and the risk of failure is so high aswell, it's a shame, i have no idea how they can do it
maybe you should take some time, i know it will be hard, but try to find a more peaceful way, or get hospitalized, talk to people, options exists, you don't need to CTB right now
hanging is tough, it's a very painful way to die, and the risk of failure is so high aswell, it's a shame, i have no idea how they can do it
maybe you should take some time, i know it will be hard, but try to find a more peaceful way, or get hospitalized, talk to people, options exists, you don't need to CTB right now
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 38,914
Hanging certainly sounds like such a risky method to me that is difficult to succeed with, it really does make it sound so much easier when you hear of all these people managing to succeed, I envy their courage. I certainly hate how difficult it is to die in this horrible world, it's so inhumane how we are denied more peaceful ways to die.
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LoiteringClouds
Tempus fugit
- Feb 7, 2023
- 3,786
Hello @tommynyc,
I can't say anything witty,
But my heart is aching for you.
I've ever tried partial, too.
You are still trapped here,
In this cruel place.
Sincerely, my dear,
I wish you peace
I'm so sorry that you seems to be in very dark place now, but welcome to this forum...
I didn't complete partial hanging in 2014, too, and have never tried since then (I don't use success/failure language because of their emotional connotations.)
There is many kind souls on this forum. Please feel free to post here
I have failed at everything. My marriage, job, kids are all falling apart. My elderly parents got hurt and are leaning on me for help when I can't even save myself. It's too much. I want it to end.
mia.wallace
Fell on black days
- Feb 1, 2023
- 768
@tommynyc , I'm so sorry life has brought you to this point and you're in so much pain. While I can't relate to your exact situation, I do know how it feels to be suffocating from despair and hopelessness and wanting so bad to rewind time and feel optimistic about the future. People do care about you here. Sending big hugs x
Worndown
Illuminated
- Mar 21, 2019
- 3,094
When using thin rope or rope subsitutes, try to fold it in half if it is long enough. That effectively doubles the weight it can hold.
squirley
: )
- May 6, 2023
- 582
I hear you man.
Life is very cruel and unforgiving.
Sorry it's brought you to this.
I didn't successfully ctb. A couple times.
Especially from impulsive and erratic choices.
Take the time to do some research.
It will help you from causing your self a bunch of unnecessary pain and perhaps even ending up in a worse situation(brain damage etc)
I'm still working on a combination of methods.
Whatever happens I hope it works out with whatever you choose and good luck.
Life is very cruel and unforgiving.
Sorry it's brought you to this.
I didn't successfully ctb. A couple times.
Especially from impulsive and erratic choices.
Take the time to do some research.
It will help you from causing your self a bunch of unnecessary pain and perhaps even ending up in a worse situation(brain damage etc)
I'm still working on a combination of methods.
Whatever happens I hope it works out with whatever you choose and good luck.
I can't sleep. I can't eat. I can't think. I don't want to wake up. I couldn't put my finger on it but you are right. The worst part is, there is no future.
Worndown
Illuminated
- Mar 21, 2019
- 3,094
I guess there are times you need to make your own future. Even if it means you are no longer here.
You are right about the unnecessary pain part. No brain damage but just realized I must have face planted (swollen nose) pretty good when the wire snapped.
squirley
: )
- May 6, 2023
- 582
ah man thats brutal, but better than brain damage.
I still havnt been able to pass right out yet I need some substance encouragement i think. Part of my new plan. Keep on making funny noises with my nose and I stop.
Little dizzy , throbbing head , face / cheeks feel tingling and warm
How high did you face plant from?
Did you have the wire anchored to something or just literally tied around neck and squeeze.
I was kneeling with the wire tied to the closet doorknob. My brain must have shut down. I didn't even realize I had passed out till now.
CrappyMJ
Member
- Apr 2, 2019
- 70
It happened to me almost a year and half ago. Used an old rope and it snapped when I was unconscious. Recently got the courage to try again but I can't seem to pass out in any way possible
I hate my life
I hate my life
I hear you. I don't know when I will work up the courage to try again.
I tried again this morning but SI kicked in because when I started fading, I knew what was coming after almost succeeding the first time. I hate myself for failing in the first place
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