Venting failing to see the future

[dreadingthesharpnel]

gonna use the greentext formula despite never being on 4chan in my life. It's just easier for me

>war in my country
>major autistic burnout since I haven't received help for my aspd having been diagnosed really late
>pending work for school I cannot bring myself to do
>failing on exams despite learning my ass off for them, I know the content I just get major blackout and sometimes derealize
>horrible trauma reactions that leave me shaken to the core
>I don't think I have much to live for, can't access hrt at the moment and It's making me miserable

I can't see any other option other than giving up. living is becoming such a chore that I don't know if I'm even doing right at all. please help me.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Welcome to the forum. I hope you find sollace here.

I wish it was easier to help people. You have an awful lot going on for you. I'm sorry for that. I suppose for each of the problems you listed, there are things you could try to ease your difficulties. They wouldn't necessarily be easy or even work though.

I suppose that goes the same for everyone in a way. We have a set of problems. We can likely see various ways of tackling those problems. Ultimately though, it's down to us over what path we choose, how much effort we put in, whether we feel that it's worth it.

A lot of your problems seem study based vs. the health problems that make studying difficult. What support are you getting from your college/ uni? Are your teachers aware of your diagnosis? Have you spoken to them or any kind of college therapist about your struggles/ worries? They are employed to support you but, do they fully realise you need extra support?

Are your family aware of the situation? Are they supportive? I agree that the future is terrifying. Even in my mid 40's, the future is still uncertain and scary. All we can really do is try to do the best we can. Make decisions that seem right at the time.

I don't know. There are sometimes other routes in life other than qualifiations and study. There are apprenticeship courses that focus more on learning skills. It really depends what you want, what you are realistically able to do. Your tutors really ought to be the ones most knowledgeable about that.

If you are hoping for suggestions to solve your problems, I'd aso recommend posting in the 'Recovery' section. I imagine people there ought to be more in the mindset of fixing problems. I hope you find a way through.