Failed suicide attempts

[Oblivion]

Who here has attempted suicide and failed?

 

[wutsthepoint]

17 2mg xanax and a bottle of rum, fuck me right..

 

[Smilla]

Tylenlol overdose at 13. Stomach pumped.

Plastic bag method sans gas at 20 with lots of OTC sleeping aids. Suffocating feeling was immense so I ripped bag off at last minute.

 

[shadow11]

Failed at 14 now I'm 57 ready to try again

 

[Vicepuma]

I've never attempted it before. I want my first attempt to also be my last one. It's probably why I've been delaying it for so long. I want absolute certainty, which isn't easy.

 

[wanttodie]

me to @Vicepuma I've never attempted it before. I want my first attempt to also be my last one.

 

[I want to end it]

I've never attempted it before. I want my first attempt to also be my last one. It's probably why I've been delaying it for so long. I want absolute certainty, which isn't easy.

Same. I don't want to fail at an attempt.

 

[Deleted_9cKnXB34QG]

I've never attempted it before. I want my first attempt to also be my last one. It's probably why I've been delaying it for so long. I want absolute certainty, which isn't easy.

Same, I'm researching my method and planning every single detail. My worst nightmare is failing, getting locked up in psych ward or worse - ending up with brain damage.

 

[Fixin’ToDie]

Failed at 14 now I'm 57 ready to try again

A long time between drinks. You did well to hold it together for the intervening period - was it all smooth sailing?

 

[shadow11]

A long time between drinks. You did well to hold it together for the intervening period - was it all smooth sailing?

Smooth until 2 years ago then everything fell apart now they have me on an antipsychotic that is killing me and I've tried to get off but I cant. Cant even leave my house. My body and soul are so tired, I'm afraid to live and afraid to die but I must get out of this hell.

 

[Tiburcio]

18/18 votes wow what a duality

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I never did it before. I'm going to do it by first time and I want to do it extremely well. I don't want to be saved by fake heros, I want to go definitely.

 

[DF90]

Got 13 attempts. Most from ages 15 to 18. All impulsive and not researched. Next time I attempt I don't think I will fail, though I am trying to make life better at the moment.

 

[BurningLights]

4 attempts.
3 ods and 1 half assed hanging attempt. If there is a reason I'm still on this planet I would like to know, if not, just let me fucking die...

 

[skitliv]

One half assed hanging attempt

 

[Brokenmom]

Who here has attempted suicide and failed?

9 years ago failed od

 

[Tiburcio]

Got 13 attempts. Most from ages 15 to 18. All impulsive and not researched. Next time I attempt I don't think I will fail, though I am trying to make life better at the moment.

I never could be able to try it in that age, I was so scared... In fact, now when I'm over the legal age I still think I couldn't do it. How did you find the way of doing them? How did you ignore the fear? Maybe you were very anxious in that moment?

 

[Comatose11]

I first attempted suicide at 13. I overdosed a few times and also tried partial suspension hanging. I'm going with full suspension hanging and did a lot of research to make sure I get the right rope and everything. I will also be making sure it is done while I am the only one at home.

 

[DF90]

I never could be able to try it in that age, I was so scared... In fact, now when I'm over the legal age I still think I couldn't do it. How did you find the way of doing them? How did you ignore the fear? Maybe you were very anxious in that moment?

Most of them were ODs. Meds were readily available in my house hold, otc and perscription. I didn't have any fear when I attempted any of them. Wasn't anxious, just wanted life to be done.

 

[Tiburcio]

Most of them were ODs. Meds were readily available in my house hold, otc and perscription. I didn't have any fear when I attempted any of them. Wasn't anxious, just wanted life to be done.

In May I was really close of doing an overdose attempt. Fortunately, I discovered this place inmediately before it it and somebody warned me it won't work.

If he wouldn't said me that, I don't want to imagine what would happened. I won't succumb to impulsivity never again.

 

[Battered_Seoul]

Partial suspension two years ago. Felt a warm rush of blackout washing over me and reflexively stood up. Shit is hard to pull off.

 

[Fixin’ToDie]

Smooth until 2 years ago then everything fell apart now they have me on an antipsychotic that is killing me and I've tried to get off but I cant. Cant even leave my house. My body and soul are so tired, I'm afraid to live and afraid to die but I must get out of this hell.

That's really bad news, shadow. Seems no matter how intact our lives might be, misfortune (whatever form it takes) alway stalks us. Suicide first entered my mind in my mid 50s (am now early 60s) when situationally my life started taking a sharp nosedive, although the course was pretty much set about 20 years ago.

 

[shadow11]

That's really bad news, shadow. Seems no matter how intact our lives might be, misfortune (whatever form it takes) alway stalks us. Suicide first entered my mind in my mid 50s (am now early 60s) when situationally my life started taking a sharp nosedive, although the course was pretty much set about 20 years ago.

I'm 57 never pictured myself in this place but see no other way out but I'm scared

 

[Oblivion]

Tried the amytriptilline cocktail method, crushed and dissolved them in water.
there was no fucking way i could drink it, extremely bitter and acidic, the taste was the worst thing i ever tasted in my life, i don't know how is this even listed as a method, it's a war crime.

 

[ge0rge]

lengthwise radial artery attempt on both forearms, clotting and insufficient depth, very good positioning otherwise

 

[286165]

Tried the amytriptilline cocktail method, crushed and dissolved them in water.
there was no fucking way i could drink it, extremely bitter and acidic, the taste was the worst thing i ever tasted in my life, i don't know how is this even listed as a method, it's a war crime.

I'm on this medication and it's seriously so nasty, just taking one pill normally is awful. But it's better than Effexor, which is what I switched off of.

 

[shadow11]

I'm on this medication and it's seriously so nasty, just taking one pill normally is awful. But it's better than Effexor, which is what I switched off of.

What do you take if you dont mind me asking

 

[286165]

What do you take if you dont mind me asking

Amytriptilline. It's meant for anxiety and depression but it's obviousky not treating the depression, or I wouldn't be here. I don't want to talk to my psychiatrist about my suicidal thoughts because A) she's not a therapist and shouldn't be, she always just ends up talking about herself and B) I refuse to be committed again, if there's even a threat of that I'll walk to the nearest bridge and jump right then.

 

[shadow11]

Amytriptilline. It's meant for anxiety and depression but it's obviousky not treating the depression, or I wouldn't be here. I don't want to talk to my psychiatrist about my suicidal thoughts because A) she's not a therapist and shouldn't be, she always just ends up talking about herself and B) I refuse to be committed again, if there's even a threat of that I'll walk to the nearest bridge and jump right then.

Never taken it they put me on zyprexa for anxiety but it's for bipolar and schizophrenia never should have been on it trying to get off it. Its killing me and I dont know what to do. Need something else with the klonopin but dont know what. Go to dr tomorrow we'll see. If nothing helps I'm ready to ctb.