Story Failed Suicide Attempt with Fentanyl

[thendfornow]

So i though it might be a good idea to share my recent last failed suicide attempt on fentanyl i got from the darknet from an apparently known and reliable vendor at least the most known and reliable vendor one can find on those kind of sites. It took more or less one month to come to me from USA to EU which i find to be a long time to wait for a person in a suicidal mindset but it let me time to think about and reconsider my decision in between in a sense even though i strill tried to die at the end. Also i dont know if its worth mentionning but for the sake of the story i will say that i'm 21M. Anyway when i received it it looked exactly like what i would expect real fentanyl to look like and i am not drug naive but i am hard drug and especially opiates completely naive so.. basically a white powder very hard like a rock and for this reason i decided after much thinking on which ROA to go to drink it dissolved in water. Which i did not wait very long to do after receiving it maybe someyhing like one week and then i couldnt handle the pain of life anymore and did it. The dosage was 125 mg which is a lot for fentanyl as 2mg is said to be the lethal dose of it so i was more or less certain it would kill me. It had a bitter taste like a lot of drugs but nothing that i couldnt handle. I also smoked a lot of weed at the same time. So much of it actually and then... i waited for death to come. 1 hour... 2 hours.. 3 hours... and still nothing. I still had hope it would do something and i didnt eated nothing since the night before and did not eat anything more after taking it. But then i think around the 4-5 hours mark i started to feel at shorts moments like my conciousness was slipping away. Like i would almost fall asleep but not really. And then i would regain conciousness almost in shock like WTF did i just loosed conciousness or what? and it was coming those moment like this in waves but at this point after waiting that long and smoking all this weed plus the fent kicking in i was not really lucid already. I was fucked up as hell basically. And when this started happening it was very weird for me. Because i expected the fent would just have knocked me out since a long time and in a much more brutal way but this was coming so slowly at me and was letting me so much time to decide what to do and idk maybe the weed paranoia helped but my survival instinct kicked in and i basically called for emergency and yall know the rest of the story. I have to say i did not know for sure if it was real fentanyl because i did not test it in any way but i found it to be much weaker in experience than what i expected especially as i have no opiate tolerance and took a huge dose of it. Maybe if i would have took another roa like IV it would have killed me but idk for sure. I did not COMPLETELY loose conciousness and stopped breathing until almost 6 hours after taking it when i already called for emergency and arrived at the hospital so 6 hours is wayyyyy too long and i did not expect to wait that long. Also on a half positive note after this experience my depression and this pain i was experiencing lessened a bit but not completely but clearly lessened. I still might commit CTB again in the future but in another way and clearly not wit fentanyl. Hope this story served a purpose for someone out there if it as any purpose at all

 

[GoingAwayParty]

You shouldn't have drank it. You're supposed to chop it into a fine line and snort it if you can't inject it. I guarantee you would have died had you done so.

 

[fizi22]

You stopped breathing?

 

[thendfornow]

You shouldn't have drank it. You're supposed to chop it into a fine line and snort it if you can't inject it. I guarantee you would have died had you done so.

Yeah actually snorting it was my first idea but once i got it the powder was so fucking hard i did not see myself snorting this i mean first making a fine line of it seemed more or less complicated and i guess my lack of knowledge in drug use played into it too. But you are prolly right. It's just it seemed complicated to do in practice so i opted for the easiest way because ... i did not wanted to complicate things. But you see even with all the peoples dying from laced fentanyl pills they dont snort or inject and still OD so i though it would also work for me that way.

You stopped breathing?

Yeah apparently i did. I was told i "could not breathe alone" and was put in medically assisted coma for one night. Personnally i just remember passing out,just like falling asleep.

 

[sharky]

I don't understand. 125mg of fentanyl? Wouldn't that be ten thousands of dollars worth?

 

[befree]

Your text is hard to read. Why don't you use paragraphs ?

May be you wanna read this guide:

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you went through all that and thank you for sharing your experience. I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do.

 

[SBC]

I'm sorry to write this, but this is not possible. 125 mg would be absolutely lethal! Have you used it all up? If not, can you check the substance for fentanil?

 

[sharky]

I'm sorry to write this, but this is not possible. 125 mg would be absolutely lethal! Have you used it all up? If not, can you check the substance for fentanil?

125mg would kill a whole office full of people . It's definitely not fentanyl

 

[thendfornow]

I don't understand. 125mg of fentanyl? Wouldn't that be ten thousands of dollars worth?

No it's not that pricy.

125mg would kill a whole office full of people . It's definitely not fentanyl

Well the point here was to say even if you been sold something as fentanyl there's more chance it's a weaker fent analog which i believe is what it was as there is a lot of them and what we call fentanyl is just one of the most potents one. I think also it may be too deadly that dealers wont sell it because of fear of losing their clients rather than selling a less risky fent analog.

I'm sorry to write this, but this is not possible. 125 mg would be absolutely lethal! Have you used it all up? If not, can you check the substance for fentanil?

Also its not that easy to analyse a substance like this because if you do the simplest tests it will check positive for any kind of fentanyl analogs no matter which one it is and to know precisely which analog you have you need to send it to a lab which is already a way more complicated story.

 

[Fentanull]

It's absolutely because you ate it; oral bioavailability of fentanyl is pretty low. The people who OD from the pressed pills with fentanyl in them are essentially always users who crush the pills down and snort them or inject them intravenously.

 

[Starinsky]

May someone please pin it.

Fentanyl in anyway Its not the way!!!!!

You lucky.i got icu and f%%#@@up my body beacuse of having 10x100 mcg fe. Patches

Be aware its no ctb here.

 

[SBC]

May someone please pin it.

Fentanyl in anyway Its not the way!!!!!

You lucky.i got icu and f%%#@@up my body beacuse of having 10x100 mcg fe. Patches

Be aware its no ctb here.

This is BS! Why is fentanil not suitable? Is there anyone here with medical training? Pure fentanil powder OD is a peaceful and very fast CTB!!!

 

[Superdeterminist]

Either that wasn't fent or the oral route really destroys the potency. Maybe both are true. All those rumours about fent being deadly can't be BS, there are too many of them. I saw your point that vendors may intentionally attenuate the potency to keep their clients alive for more purchases. This is a good point what may be true. Very slimy of them, if true.

 

[Starinsky]

You are welcome to try 24 hrs of fe. Patches maybe thats help .dont know.

I was ' scammed' by the forum and not knowing it will lead to ruin alll my family life and for me.

I can tell you its no fun in icu.and not after that.
But hey f^%$# your life its yours.
Tell me why im not just go to some place for a day and rebuy patches ?? Cause its maybe ctb and maybe jusy not.
And what if you ends up in a coma or apilapsy or some other sh%$# consider that !!
Im taking pills for a year just bcs of that

 

[Sunset Limited]

125mg is a big dose. Intramuscular administration is easy and should guarantee CTB at this dose. If the F is 100% pure.

 

[Euthanza]

Must check the purity first, idk how but I think skepticism should be default when dealing with streets' drug

 

[Advisor321]

125mg is a big dose. Intramuscular administration is easy and should guarantee CTB at this dose. If the F is 100% pure.

Injection of powder? Don't you mean a solution?

This is BS! Why is fentanil not suitable? Is there anyone here with medical training? Pure fentanil powder OD is a peaceful and very fast CTB!!!

Yes, the powder must be pure, no contamination.

But still the powder is available only be drug dealers. I guess there is no medical F powder?

 

[itsgoingtobeokay]

whats the best way to test for potency?

 

[tilsleepcomes]

I bought mine from a street drug dealer and compensated for lack of quality with quantity. At least he has customers who would be upset if he was peddling fake stuff. Through the mail there is a disconnect like who are we gonna complain to if they sell us fake fentanyl?
.
Go through a drug addict to get your stuff from their dealer, if you know one or can befriend one.

 

[HopefulButPrepared]

someone else just posted on here they nearly died by trying a single patch out, so....?

 

[Medicmedic72]

So i though it might be a good idea to share my recent last failed suicide attempt on fentanyl i got from the darknet from an apparently known and reliable vendor at least the most known and reliable vendor one can find on those kind of sites. It took more or less one month to come to me from USA to EU which i find to be a long time to wait for a person in a suicidal mindset but it let me time to think about and reconsider my decision in between in a sense even though i strill tried to die at the end. Also i dont know if its worth mentionning but for the sake of the story i will say that i'm 21M. Anyway when i received it it looked exactly like what i would expect real fentanyl to look like and i am not drug naive but i am hard drug and especially opiates completely naive so.. basically a white powder very hard like a rock and for this reason i decided after much thinking on which ROA to go to drink it dissolved in water. Which i did not wait very long to do after receiving it maybe someyhing like one week and then i couldnt handle the pain of life anymore and did it. The dosage was 125 mg which is a lot for fentanyl as 2mg is said to be the lethal dose of it so i was more or less certain it would kill me. It had a bitter taste like a lot of drugs but nothing that i couldnt handle. I also smoked a lot of weed at the same time. So much of it actually and then... i waited for death to come. 1 hour... 2 hours.. 3 hours... and still nothing. I still had hope it would do something and i didnt eated nothing since the night before and did not eat anything more after taking it. But then i think around the 4-5 hours mark i started to feel at shorts moments like my conciousness was slipping away. Like i would almost fall asleep but not really. And then i would regain conciousness almost in shock like WTF did i just loosed conciousness or what? and it was coming those moment like this in waves but at this point after waiting that long and smoking all this weed plus the fent kicking in i was not really lucid already. I was fucked up as hell basically. And when this started happening it was very weird for me. Because i expected the fent would just have knocked me out since a long time and in a much more brutal way but this was coming so slowly at me and was letting me so much time to decide what to do and idk maybe the weed paranoia helped but my survival instinct kicked in and i basically called for emergency and yall know the rest of the story. I have to say i did not know for sure if it was real fentanyl because i did not test it in any way but i found it to be much weaker in experience than what i expected especially as i have no opiate tolerance and took a huge dose of it. Maybe if i would have took another roa like IV it would have killed me but idk for sure. I did not COMPLETELY loose conciousness and stopped breathing until almost 6 hours after taking it when i already called for emergency and arrived at the hospital so 6 hours is wayyyyy too long and i did not expect to wait that long. Also on a half positive note after this experience my depression and this pain i was experiencing lessened a bit but not completely but clearly lessened. I still might commit CTB again in the future but in another way and clearly not wit fentanyl. Hope this story served a purpose for someone out there if it as any purpose at all

Please confirm if it was mcg or mg. Fent is usually mcg. I have a wealth of information on this topic. I find it hard to believe if you purchased it off the web it was mg. That is simply not how they sell it, and there are usually things that cut it to dilute the medication.

 

[Euthanza]

Please confirm if it was mcg or mg. Fent is usually mcg. I have a wealth of information on this topic. I find it hard to believe if you purchased it off the web it was mg. That is simply not how they sell it, and there are usually things that cut it to dilute the medication.

The legal prescription for liquid fentanyl is 50 mcg/ml
At least need to inject 20 ampoules to get 2mg/40ml


The fabric is in my town but I don't know how to access.

 

[evey8112]

So i though it might be a good idea to share my recent last failed suicide attempt on fentanyl i got from the darknet from an apparently known and reliable vendor at least the most known and reliable vendor one can find on those kind of sites. It took more or less one month to come to me from USA to EU which i find to be a long time to wait for a person in a suicidal mindset but it let me time to think about and reconsider my decision in between in a sense even though i strill tried to die at the end. Also i dont know if its worth mentionning but for the sake of the story i will say that i'm 21M. Anyway when i received it it looked exactly like what i would expect real fentanyl to look like and i am not drug naive but i am hard drug and especially opiates completely naive so.. basically a white powder very hard like a rock and for this reason i decided after much thinking on which ROA to go to drink it dissolved in water. Which i did not wait very long to do after receiving it maybe someyhing like one week and then i couldnt handle the pain of life anymore and did it. The dosage was 125 mg which is a lot for fentanyl as 2mg is said to be the lethal dose of it so i was more or less certain it would kill me. It had a bitter taste like a lot of drugs but nothing that i couldnt handle. I also smoked a lot of weed at the same time. So much of it actually and then... i waited for death to come. 1 hour... 2 hours.. 3 hours... and still nothing. I still had hope it would do something and i didnt eated nothing since the night before and did not eat anything more after taking it. But then i think around the 4-5 hours mark i started to feel at shorts moments like my conciousness was slipping away. Like i would almost fall asleep but not really. And then i would regain conciousness almost in shock like WTF did i just loosed conciousness or what? and it was coming those moment like this in waves but at this point after waiting that long and smoking all this weed plus the fent kicking in i was not really lucid already. I was fucked up as hell basically. And when this started happening it was very weird for me. Because i expected the fent would just have knocked me out since a long time and in a much more brutal way but this was coming so slowly at me and was letting me so much time to decide what to do and idk maybe the weed paranoia helped but my survival instinct kicked in and i basically called for emergency and yall know the rest of the story. I have to say i did not know for sure if it was real fentanyl because i did not test it in any way but i found it to be much weaker in experience than what i expected especially as i have no opiate tolerance and took a huge dose of it. Maybe if i would have took another roa like IV it would have killed me but idk for sure. I did not COMPLETELY loose conciousness and stopped breathing until almost 6 hours after taking it when i already called for emergency and arrived at the hospital so 6 hours is wayyyyy too long and i did not expect to wait that long. Also on a half positive note after this experience my depression and this pain i was experiencing lessened a bit but not completely but clearly lessened. I still might commit CTB again in the future but in another way and clearly not wit fentanyl. Hope this story served a purpose for someone out there if it as any purpose at all

most likely was not fent. Fent snorted or taken in the way you did kills almost instantly.