Failed my attempt and now I'm going to be homeless

[WonderingSoul]

Last week, I said I thought I'd be able to ctb, but I failed my partial hanging attempt, although I'm getting better at it though. I wasn't able to ctb in time and now I have to move out from my college dorm. I don't want to go back home because my parents are just going to continue abusing me. But in a few hours, I honestly am not sure what to do. All I can think of is, finding some other place to ctb. I'm worried about homeless shelters too, especially in the area I'm at because I haven't heard good things about shelters. I don't know how people do this.

Sorry if my grammar seems all over the place.

 

[freedompass]

Oh that sounds like a really awful situation. Homelessness seems like its own hell. If you are young and at college surely the college bears some responsibility for your welfare, no? At least they must have services to help or guide you to those who can. Find out if there are other options besides ctb or a homeless shelter. This is life on hard mode, I wish you the best OP.

 

[LongtimeLoser]

Seek out help from local churches. They usually have funds set aside to people in need.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are in such an awful situation. To me it is horrifying that such a thing as homelessness even exists in the first place. This life is just so cruel and unfair. I hope that you find relief from your suffering in whatever you decide to do, I wish you the best.

 

[jackodonnell]

I don't understand why they kicked you out? You have a mental health condition. Surely they should be trying to help you? That just seems so evil to me. Aren't there any shelters you can stay in until you get back on your feet?

 

[BeautifulMosaics]

I can see you're still active now. Congrats on staying strong in the midst of abuse vs homelessness. I don't know you but I'm proud of how strong you are.

 

[SeenMoreThanEnough]

Last week, I said I thought I'd be able to ctb, but I failed my partial hanging attempt, although I'm getting better at it though. I wasn't able to ctb in time and now I have to move out from my college dorm. I don't want to go back home because my parents are just going to continue abusing me. But in a few hours, I honestly am not sure what to do. All I can think of is, finding some other place to ctb. I'm worried about homeless shelters too, especially in the area I'm at because I haven't heard good things about shelters. I don't know how people do this.

Sorry if my grammar seems all over the place.

I wish I had something encouraging to tell you. Survival instinct is a bitch. One thing that keeps pushing me toward that line is the desire to find out (or not) what is on the other side. My money is on pure blackness for quadrillions, quintillions, sextillions of years, until the last stars die and the last black holes fizzle away and the last remnants of atoms and energy in our universe eventually decay, resulting in true darkness..but we won't feel it, just like Fido probably doesn't, so what does it matter. Then again, I'm still aware enough to know and understand that as'intelligent human beings', we only 'know' what our evolved senses allow us to perceive, and thus, we know virtually nothing. The possibilities are truly unknowable.

 

[tinkatonshammer]

I can see you're still active now. Congrats on staying strong in the midst of abuse vs homelessness. I don't know you but I'm proud of how strong you are.

not OP but i appreciate strangers who tell other strangers that they are proud of them. a lot of us don't hear that enough from our loved ones (or lack thereof)