I keep trying different ways, but can't get it done. I want it to be as painless as possible and not an obvious suicide -- seems to be a unicorn :)
I have a very mild heart condition that I am hoping to exploit into a "natural" looking exit.
I tried wolfsbane seeds and felt the initial symptoms (mouth burning, stomach cramping, etc.) - thought I'd finally made it to the finish line, but still woke up the next morning.
I have purchased 20 Japanese "Spreading" Yew (Taxus cuspidata) tree seeds. I have no idea if they will be enough (I am a hefty older woman). I need to do it when I have a few days off work (like this weekend) in case it does not succeed - I can't afford to miss work or I will lose my job and possibly my home.
I have seen a few previous threads on these seeds, but as usual with plant toxicity, the effects seem to vary from "if you touch it you'll die" to "I ate 1,000 seeds and was fine."
Also, I'm honestly a little scared it will work and scared it won't work. Can anyone relate?
If I can get up the nerve this weekend, I can try to keep someone updated with my experience.
Here is the most useful google article I could find on Yew seed poisoning.
I have a very mild heart condition that I am hoping to exploit into a "natural" looking exit.
I tried wolfsbane seeds and felt the initial symptoms (mouth burning, stomach cramping, etc.) - thought I'd finally made it to the finish line, but still woke up the next morning.
I have purchased 20 Japanese "Spreading" Yew (Taxus cuspidata) tree seeds. I have no idea if they will be enough (I am a hefty older woman). I need to do it when I have a few days off work (like this weekend) in case it does not succeed - I can't afford to miss work or I will lose my job and possibly my home.
I have seen a few previous threads on these seeds, but as usual with plant toxicity, the effects seem to vary from "if you touch it you'll die" to "I ate 1,000 seeds and was fine."
Also, I'm honestly a little scared it will work and scared it won't work. Can anyone relate?
If I can get up the nerve this weekend, I can try to keep someone updated with my experience.
Here is the most useful google article I could find on Yew seed poisoning.
