Failed attempt with 90 pills of lexapro + some Vyvanse

[yellowroses]

This was my most serious/planned out attempt yet, thought I'd post what happened for reference if anyone else is considering lexapro.

I've heard how difficult it is to OD on lexapro, but that's what's most easily available to me, and I was hoping that if I took an absurd amount it would do something. I saved up my prescription for 3 months (it's 40mg for reference), then took a bottle a day for 3 days, trying to give myself serotonin syndrome. I also took about a dozen 30mg Vyvanse pills on the last day. The hope for the last day was that I'd have a heart attack or something before my husband got home. I took everything at 8am.

After a few hours I was seriously tripping out: having full on hallucinations, body was vibrating violently, sweating constantly, and having heart palpitations. Despite how fucked it made me feel physically, mentally I felt great the whole time. I started to get nervous when I was still conscious around 3pm, and my husband got home at 4:30 and took me to the ER- he didn't know I had been taking the pills, so I came up with a cover story about accidentally taking a double dose that morning.

Had a panic attack in the ER waiting room where I swear my soul was getting ripped out of my body.

they ran a bunch of tests and kept checking my vitals, and I literally couldn't believe it when they said everything looked fine, apparently lexapro really is as difficult to OD on as they say lmao.

Any way, I think that might have been the last attempt for me, like I said I was really tripping out and feel like I had some revelations about things lmao. We'll see. Thanks for reading!

 

[FuneralCry]

It's just the reality that OD on pills like that isn't recommended if one wishes to leave this world, I think that if people could easily OD on pills that were accessible then the pills would soon be restricted as this society is so incredibly anti-suicide. But anyway that sounds so horrible what you've had to endure, failing a suicide attempt is certainly is what I fear.

 

[Readytogo246]

You are brave to go through this. i hope you find clarity on your path. I would be devastated for it not working. Now you have the time to review all of your choices with even more awareness. Blessings on the journey.

 

[yyytry]

That's one of my worst fears…doubling up on vyvanse. And you took a dozen or so?

Holy fuck. I def wouldn't go by way of stimulant OD.
However my first NDE was brought about by an OD on adderall (snorting).

 

[Readytogo246]

OMG I thought that would nave done it. Drugs are ifffy.

 

[yellowroses]

That's one of my worst fears…doubling up on vyvanse. And you took a dozen or so?

Holy fuck. I def wouldn't go by way of stimulant OD.
However my first NDE was brought about by an OD on adderall (snorting).

It wasn't that bad of an experience until I got to the ER and started panicking, for the first part of the day I just felt super high/ like I was tripping out. Still obviously wouldn't recommend, the heart palpitations were freaky.

OMG I thought that would nave done it. Drugs are ifffy.

So did I, I was SHOCKED when all the tests came back completely fine, I was positive I would've at least given myself some kind of kidney or liver failure.

 

[LittleJem]

wow - the joys of serotonin syndrome! Pleased it was not too unpleasant for you.

I'm guessing MDMA is a more pleasant experience in future though ;)

 

[yellowroses]

wow - the joys of serotonin syndrome! Pleased it was not too unpleasant for you.

I'm guessing MDMA is a more pleasant experience in future though ;)

100%, ironically I think I hallucinated more in the ER waiting room than i did on my last heroic dose of acid