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Sweetfa
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- Feb 17, 2020
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My therapist was sexually inappropriate in an email, triggered me really badly, I've spent a month trying to get him to hold his hands up that it was wrong so we could move past it, he gaslighted me for a month and then reduced our sessions like its my fault, told me how I've fucked HIS head up and referred to me like a black widow then told me if I don't trust him I can fire him, then cancelled our last session, sent my money back and told me to never contact him again. I tried to kill myself on 18th with insulin but failed, refused hospital treatment and as a result mental health team were threatening to section me. My GP put a stop to me being sectioned but I can't stop thinking about and crying about my therapist. For a long time we were way over the boundaries with many emails outside of sessions and a level of intimacy that was beyond what a therapist should have with a client but my own fault, nothing sexual happened between us but that email he sent was so triggering, elicit, graphicly instructing me to touch myself.
I am meant to be having assisted suicide in Switzerland at the end of next year but I don't want to wait that long, I can't survive a year without him. I don't know what to do. It hurts so much and on top of everything else I'm going through in my life.. I just can't do it.
I am meant to be having assisted suicide in Switzerland at the end of next year but I don't want to wait that long, I can't survive a year without him. I don't know what to do. It hurts so much and on top of everything else I'm going through in my life.. I just can't do it.