Exhausted all of my options, CTB in 1.5-3weeks

[barelys4ne]

I will be ready to implement my SN setup after realizing how futile my abilities and circumstances for a decent life will come to fruition. I have dealt with severe depression for too long. I don't want to be alone in this decision till the very end, if there's anyone I could talk to pls hmu

I have Loudwolf SN, Meto, Propanolol as an emergency exit stashed properly from the past 2 years also AMA

 

[AveMori]

Hi! I am planning CTB with SN soon too, you are not alone. I am here, if you need somebody to talk to!

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds like you've suffered a lot and it must be really tiring what you are going through. But anyway I wish you the best in your plans and I hope that you find the freedom you search for.

 

[MapleSyrupVein]

i wish you nothing but what you want<3 i am not planning anything for a while but i hope me putting something here makes you feel less alone

 

[barelys4ne]

My method has been the only thing that has brought me long term peace, sorry to those that have hit me up personally. I've been needing time alone

 

[YosemiteGrrl]

My method has been the only thing that has brought me long term peace, sorry to those that have hit me up personally. I've been needing time alone

Will you be taking your journey soon?

 

[enough of this]

You're not alone in that. I know the feeling very well.
I wish you peace, before and after.

 

[barelys4ne]

I will be ingesting SN 6/15 to 6/16. My executive function is incredibly god awful and it only comes back in short bursts, it has gradually been getting worse over the years but the last month have been nearly nothing but torture. I don't really have much mental clarity or passion to pursue any of the last passions/interests I had. I'm a zombie to my own friends after dealing with some trauma and mental health episodes back around 2019-2020. It's only a miracle that I've made it this far with more cherished memories and people to care for.

I didn't come close to any of my potential and made some devastating mistakes in my life, I've lost so much already and don't have the mental or desire to build back and more. I can't deal with the shitty 9 to 5, my passion and social skills decaying, lost connections, no health insurance, and my ugly appearance. There's so much more but only so much time and energy I can lay out to this post.