Discussion Excited to die

[Obliviate]

I figured let's be more positive about death instead of focusing too much about the suffering. When my time comes, I want it to be happy and filled with a sense of freedom. Talk about what makes you happy about death. Seeing all the world conflicts pop up, (What's happening in Iran breaks my heart) increase in every malicious thing out there basically makes me want to leave. I seriously cannot imagine being in that situation and not CTBing, Idk how people do it, how they survive to just suffer. Life doesn't seem real anymore. Nothing seems real anymore People are getting killed left and right so what's the point.

ANYWAYS, I'm so excited to not deal with society anymore, so excited and happy that I get to leave this ghetto ass earth and finally be free. It's obvious there is no one coming to save us. Excited that I don't have to deal with money, job, school, potentially getting raped, killed, hate crimed, kidnapped, tortured, you know all the basic things. Even though I'm quite young (early 20's) I've seen what I needed to see and no thank you. I am good with letting my life card be terminated/expired. Another thing, we can also make this funny and humorous. It doesn't have to be so sad and gloomy all the time. I always make dark jokes like "Damn ya'll wanna live and pay bills? Couldn't be me" I just laugh and be like "idk about ya'll but I'm leaving this crusty ass planet." I look up heaven/death memes and they always cheer me up/make me laugh and give me a sense of calm. It's ok to let go. We're tired and we've been through enough. Think about all the fun we'll have in heaven. Comment some funny memes about death/heaven/afterlife or whatever you believe in to normalize it.

Fun joke: A couple months ago I literally asked god/universe/whatever, if you want me to stay, give me a sign/do something and prove to me that "life is beautiful"/ worth living blah blah....................Things got worse LMAOOOO even God is like "Child, wrap it up."

But jokes aside I think this is God's/universe's/whatever's way of saying it's ok to let go.

 

[thebunny]

this is exactly what i was thinking!

i've always been so giddy after the moment i found out i could permanently leave this world, after i've chosen my method of exiting. people couldn't understand why i was so excited and happy. death is beautiful and i want to welcome it with open arms. the thought of sleeping forever and to not have to deal with any of the bs life throws against us is comforting and puts a little sense of joy in me.

 

[emgrl]

For real, how much longer? We should start a meme thread

 

[Obliviate]

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For real, how much longer? We should start a meme thread

That's what I hope to start lol a funny meme thread about death to remind us that it is normal

this is exactly what i was thinking!

i've always been so giddy after the moment i found out i could permanently leave this world, after i've chosen my method of exiting. people couldn't understand why i was so excited and happy. death is beautiful and i want to welcome it with open arms. the thought of sleeping forever and to not have to deal with any of the bs life throws against us is comforting and puts a little sense of joy in me.

Welcoming it with open arms is such a beautiful and positive way to look at it

 

[emgrl]

That's what I hope to start lol a funny meme thread about death to remind us that it is normal

After I posted here, I started one

 

[ManicPanic2018]

Yea I'm really looking forward to it too! I think I've cried maybe once about the situation, that feels like enough for me.

I'm happy to be leaving just before society eats itself alive through late stage capitalism and the ensuing climate and resource wars, im glad I'll never have to work again, and more importantly I'm glad I'll finally be out of this fucking body. It was shit and misgendered before i even got mutilated, now I can't wait for it to burn and for me to finally be free.

Theres a big one in off topic, just as a heads up :)

After I posted here, I started one

 

[Obliviate]

Yea I'm really looking forward to it too! I think I've cried maybe once about the situation, that feels like enough for me.

I'm happy to be leaving just before society eats itself alive through late stage capitalism and the ensuing climate and resource wars, im glad I'll never have to work again, and more importantly I'm glad I'll finally be out of this fucking body. It was shit and misgendered before i even got mutilated, now I can't wait for it to burn and for me to finally be free.

Theres a big one in off topic, just as a heads up :)

That's a beautiful way to look at it. Honestly, I've cried so much but I'm so tired of crying and being sad all the time. It's time we get excited and happy that we'll be leaving soon to our freedom and won't have to be tortured anymore.

 

[ManicPanic2018]

That's a beautiful way to look at it. Honestly, I've cried so much but I'm so tired of crying and being sad all the time. It's time we get excited and happy that we'll be leaving soon to our freedom and won't have to be tortured anymore.

Amen <3 It hurt me for a long time to have to sit on the sidelines and watch other people be happy, problem free and oblivious to all the problems we face. I did all my screaming to the universe about how unfair it all felt over many years, which is probably why I don't get upset by it any more.

But to me, death really does just feel like going home. It's been a while. I can't wait <3

 

[chocolatebar]

I wish I felt the same way...

 

[redeyepiranha]

I'm very excited about death, I hope I'll be leaving soon, seeing the way the world is heading towards entropy, it's already a hell scape, I'll become nothing just like I was before

 

[FuneralCry]

I believe that to die is the best possible thing to happen. We simply cease to exist and it's just like how before we were born where time passed and yet we were not aware of anything. We are simply returning to the state of non existence. To die solves all problems and prevents any future suffering. The non existent have no concerns or worries and instead of having to deal with the burden that is existence, there is simply nothing, and nothingness is ideal.

I've never feared death at all and I've always found the thought of it extremely comforting. Every day the thought of ceasing to exist is more and more appealing. There is absolutely nothing here for me in this world and the thing that I have a problem with is life itself.

 

[Hope:-)]

I'm excited to leave behind my facial injuries, my past medical trauma and to break away from my role in my family. Going ahead with it is tough but there have been plenty of tough people here who's bravery has been inspiring. Trying to be positive and think about all the negative things that will just fade into the background if I ctb. Thanks for the thread.x

 

[actual_fox]

 

[Obliviate]

I wish I felt the same way...

It takes a while to get into this mindset where your comfortable with death and not afraid of it or sad about life. I still get sad and afraid but all it takes is one good look into reality and what's going on in the world to get me to snap back into the CTB motivation. Such a nasty world we live in.

I'm very excited about death, I hope I'll be leaving soon, seeing the way the world is heading towards entropy, it's already a hell scape, I'll become nothing just like I was before

Yeah I feel like we're already living in hell so why not escape

 

[TiredLostHope20]

This is me! I though i was going to be stuck in this world for a long time, slaving away. Now i know its actually possible to die in a way i want to im so happy!

 

[actual_fox]

I am really fucking with idea of dying. Like every time I drive, I think that I could get hit by truck, or that my plane could crash. I cannot see myself live through: WW3, societal collapse, hunger and all that. World is too brutal and I would be fucking useless in real war.

I have no reason to live other than "mom would be sad". This world is finished for me. I want to go somewhere else where aliens like me can be in peace or cease to exist at all.

This is me! I though i was going to be stuck in this world for a long time, slaving away. Now i know its actually possible to die in a way i want to im so happy!

Idk, rope or sn. I cannot decide. I am thinking about doing It classic way.

 

[TiredLostHope20]

I am really fucking with idea of dying. Like every time I drive, I think that I could get hit by truck, or that my plane could crash. I cannot see myself live through: WW3, societal collapse, hunger and all that. World is too brutal and I would be fucking useless in real war.

I have no reason to live other than "mom would be sad". This world is finished for me. I want to go somewhere else where aliens like me can be in peace or cease to exist at all.

Idk, rope or sn. I cannot decide. I am thinking about doing It classic way.

Im doing the SN route

 

[actual_fox]

Im doing the SN route

(I really enjoyed breaking bad and It made me love chemistry)
Ok. Sorry for asking you this. I will choose myself.

 

[Euthanza]

Death is better, it's a solution to all problems.

 

[chocolatebar]

It takes a while to get into this mindset where your comfortable with death and not afraid of it or sad about life. I still get sad and afraid but all it takes is one good look into reality and what's going on in the world to get me to snap back into the CTB motivation. Such a nasty world we live in.

Yeah I feel like we're already living in hell so why not escape

It takes a while to get into this mindset where your comfortable with death and not afraid of it or sad about life. I still get sad and afraid but all it takes is one good look into reality and what's going on in the world to get me to snap back into the CTB motivation. Such a nasty world we live in.

Yeah I feel like we're already living in hell so why not escape

It takes a while to get into this mindset where your comfortable with death and not afraid of it or sad about life. I still get sad and afraid but all it takes is one good look into reality and what's going on in the world to get me to snap back into the CTB motivation. Such a nasty world we live in.

Yeah I feel like we're already living in hell so why not escape

Time? I'be been in this limbo for a looong time...

The idea of dying can feel good, but it's all suffering in the end. I have both been close to death and around people in their last moments and the only thing I saw was pain and despair. Death can be so slow...

All the positive aspects of death come after we are dead and are beyond our experiences. Suffering is all I'm going to have and there's nothing positive about it

Time? I'be been in this limbo for a looong time...

The idea of dying can feel good, but it's all suffering in the end. I have both been close to death and around people in their last moments and the only thing I saw was pain and despair. Death can be so slow...

All the positive aspects of death come after we are dead and are beyond our experiences. Suffering is all I'm going to have and there's nothing positive about it

II have the feeling my last comment was a bit rude. Sorry for that. Not feeling well

 

[KQuotientW]

I'm almost ready. The room is almost fully sealed. Earth is a ghetto, for sure.

I gave it 49+ years. I also tried to ask the "universe" for a sign. Things just go from bad to shit. I've practically begged to be able to move to a safer environment where my stalker (not an ex, but a fuckwit who's obsessed with me) of 9 years cannot find me. Nope, Nada, Zilch.

Plus, the pea brained idiots who live in this small, rural town, where I live, find it amusing to watch what the stalker does to me, rather than offer help. Empathy and compassion are in short supply in this very tiny rural town where there's not much else for them to do.

I have been nice for years, but some take advantage of kindness. I have friends who live far away from here, in a district where there are less arseholes. I'll miss the few who've bothered to get to know me, and understand my situation. My stalker, out of the heaps of things he's done to me, has tried to run me over on two separate occasions. Normal people don't think that sort of shit is funny. The morons in this little town do. If you're not a meth-head, they don't want to know you, but delight in spreading malicious rumours.

I stopped talking to my family many years ago because of deeply entrenched domestic violence. So, I don't really have anyone to turn to.

This planet sucks. I'm glad to be leaving.

 

[eldiablo666]

I figured let's be more positive about death instead of focusing too much about the suffering. When my time comes, I want it to be happy and filled with a sense of freedom. Talk about what makes you happy about death. Seeing all the world conflicts pop up, (What's happening in Iran breaks my heart) increase in every malicious thing out there basically makes me want to leave. I seriously cannot imagine being in that situation and not CTBing, Idk how people do it, how they survive to just suffer. Life doesn't seem real anymore. Nothing seems real anymore People are getting killed left and right so what's the point.

ANYWAYS, I'm so excited to not deal with society anymore, so excited and happy that I get to leave this ghetto ass earth and finally be free. It's obvious there is no one coming to save us. Excited that I don't have to deal with money, job, school, potentially getting raped, killed, hate crimed, kidnapped, tortured, you know all the basic things. Even though I'm quite young (early 20's) I've seen what I needed to see and no thank you. I am good with letting my life card be terminated/expired. Another thing, we can also make this funny and humorous. It doesn't have to be so sad and gloomy all the time. I always make dark jokes like "Damn ya'll wanna live and pay bills? Couldn't be me" I just laugh and be like "idk about ya'll but I'm leaving this crusty ass planet." I look up heaven/death memes and they always cheer me up/make me laugh and give me a sense of calm. It's ok to let go. We're tired and we've been through enough. Think about all the fun we'll have in heaven. Comment some funny memes about death/heaven/afterlife or whatever you believe in to normalize it.
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Fun joke: A couple months ago I literally asked god/universe/whatever, if you want me to stay, give me a sign/do something and prove to me that "life is beautiful"/ worth living blah blah....................Things got worse LMAOOOO even God is like "Child, wrap it up."

But jokes aside I think this is God's/universe's/whatever's way of saying it's ok to let go.

Or maybe God is trying to tell you to try harder.
Just a thought.

 

[StolenLife]

Damn... I wanna contribute but half the things I downloaded are in the wrong file format. So here's my modest contribution:

 

[Obliviate]

Or maybe God is trying to tell you to try harder.
Just a thought.

OR just STFU and gtfo out my thread. you don't know shit about me or my life. This comment was unnecessarily rude. Keep your passive aggressive thoughts to yourself. "Harder" lmaoooo I can hear your privilege. It's sad it always goes to the shitty people

 

[makethepainstop]

I can understand your excitement! To know you shall cease suffering, oh the feeling. I'm right there with you mam!
I can understand your excitement! To know you shall cease suffering, oh the feeling. I'm right there with you mam!

 

[Obliviate]

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I'm almost ready. The room is almost fully sealed. Earth is a ghetto, for sure.

I gave it 49+ years. I also tried to ask the "universe" for a sign. Things just go from bad to shit. I've practically begged to be able to move to a safer environment where my stalker (not an ex, but a fuckwit who's obsessed with me) of 9 years cannot find me. Nope, Nada, Zilch.

Plus, the pea brained idiots who live in this small, rural town, where I live, find it amusing to watch what the stalker does to me, rather than offer help. Empathy and compassion are in short supply in this very tiny rural town where there's not much else for them to do.

I have been nice for years, but some take advantage of kindness. I have friends who live far away from here, in a district where there are less arseholes. I'll miss the few who've bothered to get to know me, and understand my situation. My stalker, out of the heaps of things he's done to me, has tried to run me over on two separate occasions. Normal people don't think that sort of shit is funny. The morons in this little town do. If you're not a meth-head, they don't want to know you, but delight in spreading malicious rumours.

I stopped talking to my family many years ago because of deeply entrenched domestic violence. So, I don't really have anyone to turn to.

This planet sucks. I'm glad to be leaving.

I'm so sorry for what you have been through. People are so disgusting. I wish you eternal peace. I'll see you on the other side of you exciting journey