Discussion Excited to ctb but i sometimes get this sinking feeling in my stomach thinking about death

[contemplatingjaahil]

Does anyone else get this? I also sometimes get this feeling when I think about someone who has died. Its a very overwhelming, uncomfortable feeling.

 

[weepingfree]

For me, I associate that feeling with my irrational hope machine. "If I do this, I'll never have the chance to turn my life around." And that finality scares me.

But I think what we can't conceive is that death isn't scary, because there's no more person to feel the fear. You won't feel anything. It's going to sleep and never waking up. That, I am very much looking forward to

 

[contemplatingjaahil]

For me, I associate that feeling with my irrational hope machine. "If I do this, I'll never have the chance to turn my life around." And that finality scares me.

But I think what we can't conceive is that death isn't scary, because there's no more person to feel the fear. You won't feel anything. It's going to sleep and never waking up. That, I am very much looking forward to

Wow irrational hope machine is a great term. Thanks. That machine is the only reason im still here. My brain cant comprehend that this time isnt the one special time that things will change for me.

 

[weepingfree]

Wow irrational hope machine is a great term. Thanks. That machine is the only reason im still here. My brain cant comprehend that this time isnt the one special time that things will change for me.

Hahah EXACTLY. My brain is always saying that to me. It's brainOS to keep you living

 

[toforigivelife]

I don't know how dire your situation is but it might be your intuition telling you that you're not ready to go through with it at this time.

I could be wrong, like I said I don't know how bad your situation is.

There are times when I'm so bad off that suicide would feel as natural as dying of old age.

Well, I don't need to tell you that it's your choice. Just think it through.

You'll either be off to a glorious new realm or be in state where deep, dreamless sleep doesn't come close to describing it.

 

[weepingfree]

What evidence is there for a glorious new realm?

When we die, we become organic matter for other living creatures to eat. Plants, animals, all will feast on my rotting flesh

 

[toforigivelife]

What evidence is there for a glorious new realm?

When we die, we become organic matter for other living creatures to eat. Plants, animals, all will feast on my rotting flesh

Jesus appeared before me this morning, took me by the hand and gave a guided tour of Heaven. It's very nice, everyone was very friendly. A bit on the pious side but overall to they seemed like nice folks.

Jesus kept finding reasons to mention that he knows Elvis personally. You wouldn't think the Son of God would feel the need to name drop like that but I overlooked it, what with him being our Lord and Savior and all.

He then showed me where people who say things like "we become organic matter for other living creatures to eat. Plants, animals, all will feast on my rotting flesh" wind up. It's not a pleasant place. (And talk about rude people!)

I don't know for certain that we go to a glorious new realm.

That's why I offered two different scenarios.

 

[Bullit]

A man lived a life full of pain and suffering. But he never lost faith in Jesus.
When at last he died he went to heaven and met Jesus and was overjoyed.
But a question lingered.
"Lord," he said," I suffered so much in my life,and I cried out to you,but I always felt alone..."
Jesus stretched out his hand,and there appeared a long shoreline. Upon the beach was a long trail of two sets of footprints.
"This is your life,my son,as you walked through it I walked right alongside you."
"But Lord," said the man," at the most painful and wretched times of my life,there is only one set of prints..."
Jesus looked at him with love and replied," Well,uhm, heh heh,,lets face it,you're not exactly a barrel of laughs,ok? "

 

[toforigivelife]

A man lived a life full of pain and suffering. But he never lost faith in Jesus.
When at last he died he went to heaven and met Jesus and was overjoyed.
But a question lingered.
"Lord," he said," I suffered so much in my life,and I cried out to you,but I always felt alone..."
Jesus stretched out his hand,and there appeared a long shoreline. Upon the beach was a long trail of two sets of footprints.
"This is your life,my son,as you walked through it I walked right alongside you."
"But Lord," said the man," at the most painful and wretched times of my life,there is only one set of prints..."
Jesus looked at him with love and replied," Well,uhm, heh heh,,lets face it,you're not exactly a barrel of laughs,ok? "

:-) :-) :-)

Thanks for this! :-)

 

[OnlyTheWind]

Sorry to hear that you have that experience. I sometimes get that when I wake up very early in the mornin. It's one of the worst feelings because during those times I'm not even sure I can CTB, which makes me feel even more trapped.

 

[hdahsa]

I agree - it is the finality of death that holds me back more than anything else. It is a step from which there is no return, no undo or restart. That is also the reason why people want to ctb I guess - because it seems to be the end and nothing more to be endured. So it works both ways.

 

[Sisyphus]

Yes but every minute is a death, and every minute is a step from which there is no return. There's not really any do-over for anything in our lives, since everything is locked eternally into the past.

 

[FuneralCry]

Us humans are programmed to live and taking our own lives is hard, it goes against our survival instinct. Existence is all we know really. Eternal nothingness is what I want though, and eventually I will probably reach the point of desparation.