
sincerelysad
bpd . chronic pain . ptsd . pls be kind <3
- Jan 4, 2023
- 158
im probably being evicted soon. my partner keeps trying to convince me that it'll be okay and i really don't think it's going to be.
i wanted to have a foolproof and dignified way to ctb before facing homelessness. i dont think im going to be able to achieve that, and soon i won't have a home address to order SN to. it's not really one of those things you can ask an acquaintance to borrow an address for, lol. im having a hard time coping with knowing that i won't ever have access to a peaceful death and i'll have to suffer into oblivion.
im terrified. i don't really know what to say beyond that. im really afraid. being homeless is one thing, but being faced with a violent death and possible lifetime disability solely because i can't handle being homeless is clearly a whole other issue.
i want to close my eyes and for it all to be over.
i wanted to have a foolproof and dignified way to ctb before facing homelessness. i dont think im going to be able to achieve that, and soon i won't have a home address to order SN to. it's not really one of those things you can ask an acquaintance to borrow an address for, lol. im having a hard time coping with knowing that i won't ever have access to a peaceful death and i'll have to suffer into oblivion.
im terrified. i don't really know what to say beyond that. im really afraid. being homeless is one thing, but being faced with a violent death and possible lifetime disability solely because i can't handle being homeless is clearly a whole other issue.
i want to close my eyes and for it all to be over.