Everything is becoming worse

[drag201]

Over the next few months my mental health is spiralling beyond just suicidal thoughts, i know i cant be helped because i dont look for it and partially because i dont want it, and i dont have the strength to have mercy on myself and end everything, from the last post i made here i am pretty much an addict and have lost many jobs and im pretty much living in a delusional state. Friends, i have not forgotten what this website means to me, you have never been judgemental or talked to me wrong like everyone does. People dont take me seriously so i cannot get the assistance I need and even if i did i dont feel like being put in a nut house. I will always wish the best for all of you no matter where that may be. I think of all of you who have already passed on, I try to imagine your peace but it stays there as i don't know it yet. Today is not the day but i know my plans. God bless you all if you believe, or stay strong in this impossible journey

 

[telekon]

Over the next few months my mental health is spiralling beyond just suicidal thoughts, i know i cant be helped because i dont look for it and partially because i dont want it, and i dont have the strength to have mercy on myself and end everything, from the last post i made here i am pretty much an addict and have lost many jobs and im pretty much living in a delusional state. Friends, i have not forgotten what this website means to me, you have never been judgemental or talked to me wrong like everyone does. People dont take me seriously so i cannot get the assistance I need and even if i did i dont feel like being put in a nut house. I will always wish the best for all of you no matter where that may be. I think of all of you who have already passed on, I try to imagine your peace but it stays there as i don't know it yet. Today is not the day but i know my plans. God bless you all if you believe, or stay strong in this impossible journey

I believe "seeking help" is almost always futile and we can only help ourselves.