Venting Everything in my life is going wrong

[Cepheuss]

I planned to die on the 14th april and since then everything in my life has gone wrong, ive lost all of my friends, relapsed on two things, my boyfriend got a girl pregnant and shes keeping it, ive failed 5 times this year, nearly got fired for no fucking reason, my parents alcoholism worsens every day theyre going to die before im 30 and they dont care honestly theres more but i just csnt remember theres too much happening oh my prosecution period against my stalker ended so hes just free to keep going after me i guess ! Im just gonna keep trying until i get it right everytime i think it cant get worse it finds a fucking way to. Im so done.