What I did, how it happened, what happened to me, how I express myself... it doesn't feel real. It happened but it doesn't feel like it happened but it did. And I keep thinking about it. Why did I get angry? It feels like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. I feel like that because I am like that. It becomes a blur, I watch myself doing these things but I'm not in control of my body. I'm just reacting, not responding. And it's like I black out. I'm conscious and aware but it's like I'm not. And it happens.
And it doesn't feel real.
And then I wake up thinking, "What have I done?" And I realize the horrible thing I've done. But I can't control it or sometimes I can. But it happens and I just have no control over it.
And it doesn't feel real.
And then I wake up thinking, "What have I done?" And I realize the horrible thing I've done. But I can't control it or sometimes I can. But it happens and I just have no control over it.
