Everyone makes fun of me.

[Parnate]

I am a closeted gay man. I have always been feminine. I am also extremely sensitive. Throughout my school life I was bullied and called names for being feminine. Even though I make a conscious effort to not act or behave or talk in a feminine manner , very often I do, it's my natural behaviour.
For last one decade people didn't say anything.
But since last one year, people are saying that again.
I went to play badminton with my office colleagues. While over there they said I was playing like girls, they imitated my hand movements. They asked me to bring aggression in my playing . Badminton is something I enjoy so much. It brings so much relief to my depression. But after this , I just don't want to go to play again.

I and my roommates went to a resort for a small vacation. While over there we got in the swimming pool and we were all splattering water over each other.
Again one of my roommates, imitated my hand movements and made fun of me.
I hate this and myself.

 

[khairan]

My advice is that you be true to yourself above all else. They tease you because they perceive your insecurity. I can't say exactly how to do it, or when, but if there's is a common regret amongst people is not being true to themselves or betraying themselves.

Who gives a fuck what these idiots think? It's not like they're going to ever intervene to help you out in a dire situation.

If you've come as far as to consider death, which is the ultimate and final consequences, why does it even matter what the opinion of these miserable fucks is?

Maybe just research on people that have been in your situation.

I'm not gay but I was sexually abused as a kid and developed autogynephilia. If it is any consolation my life would be way more easy and normal if I just were the gayest little butterfly on town. You're in a closet: I'm in a coffin.

Just onward and no fear, friend.