everyone around me is happy

[motob]

I see how everyone around me is living such fun (or at least okay) lives. They make eachother happy, they participate in activities. And I'm just. A spectator to everyone else. Even for the people I'm close to, they have other friends/family etc that they talk to more. It makes me feel bittersweet. I'm happy they're happy, but it makes me feel like it's okay to go.

 

[58Alice85]

I think the normies are getting more happy because the pain and despair in the world is increasing. If you see someone smiling it is more likely that they are happy because they made someone miserable rather than true happiness.

 

[Mr. Snrub]

I think the normies are getting more happy because the pain and despair in the world is increasing. If you see someone smiling it is more likely that they are happy because they made someone miserable rather than true happiness.

Wait what's a normie to you? Because it sounds like you're confusing normie with sadist.

 

[glowing.purple.aura]

I think the normies are getting more happy because the pain and despair in the world is increasing. If you see someone smiling it is more likely that they are happy because they made someone miserable rather than true happiness.

LMAO... unfortunately true though

 

[Vlad Tepes]

I know how you feel. Im a ghost, a spectator. I was born to suffer, and I exist only to be reminded of how much I suffer, and of how much, in contrast, everybody besides me has it well and enjoys life. Even on internet forums dedicated to mental health I cant find people who are able to relate to the deranged nightmare I have had to live through.

 

[woofwag]

In fairness, you can never truly know how people are feeling. I used to not talk to anyone or do anything. I still don't do as much as I want to, but I consider myself to be more actively involved in other people's lives (although idk if anyone would ever think of me as their "first choice" if that makes sense). But I still feel how I did before. I'm still very depressed and suicidal. I'm just good at masking it, because it's what I have to do if I want to not get put in a ward or ostracized again.

 

[motob]

Yeah, I bet my life also looks pretty decent from the outside, but I am posting here lol.

Also ++ on the ostracization thing. At least here I can express my feelings. A whiff of intent to anyone else and you're suddenly some kind of pariah.

In fairness, you can never truly know how people are feeling. I used to not talk to anyone or do anything. I still don't do as much as I want to, but I consider myself to be more actively involved in other people's lives (although idk if anyone would ever think of me as their "first choice" if that makes sense). But I still feel how I did before. I'm still very depressed and suicidal. I'm just good at masking it, because it's what I have to do if I want to not get put in a ward or ostracized again.