Discussion Everyone around me gets depressed; I think I'm toxic

[PlushieLover]

Hey guys it's me. Well, I think that everyone one around me feels more miserable. I'm always talking about how life is a piece of garbage and you know, depressing topics in general.

My whole personality is being depressed, being edgy, being a clown, and being an idiot. So I think that people don't enjoy my company.

Don't remember if I already said this but whatever. I have a friend that is like the happiest person alive and I made him so sad that he started crying and he told me how shitty life is for him too.

So yeah, I think I break everything I touch, I'm always complaining and crying about stupid things that does not matter anyway. Maybe I should just stop talking to people. I try my best to not being depressed and to not open my mouth if I'm just going to say something negative but then I don't talk at all.

Does someone feels like me, or do you think I'm toxic?

 

[Weebster]

I'm the same. I've been described as a dementor who sucks away all joyous feelings, though only empaths say this.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

I can say nothing and kill the vibe just with my facial expression

 

[PlushieLover]

I can say nothing and kill the vibe just with my facial expression

Damn, at least my emotionless face has an upside.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that being depressed can often mean you are just being realistic. Life is very unfair, sad and is only suffering after all. Those who are positive in a world as horrible as this must be delusional.

 

[Oblivion Access]

Yeah, I know what you mean. Getting that sort of feedback consistently really makes you wanna cut all contact with everyone. I tried toning the darkness down a bit but it still didn't work, and anything past that feels like pretending to be a different person entirely. You can find ppl who resonate with your genuine self though, but that has its own downsides like anything.

 

[waitingforrest]

I feel the same, it's like I'm cursed with 1000 years of edginess. But it really does make me feel guilty for being depressed all the time. The people around me have so much more potential are wasting their time on me.

You know about the saying, when people threaten suicide it means they are emotionally abusive and negative people are toxic friends? Everyone thinks I am threatening ctb to get what I want when I actually really mean it. But no one believes me because I show up the next day like nothing happened. It's because I failed. :(

I don't think it makes you a toxic person, it's just what society thinks is toxic.

 

[CommitSudoku]

Does someone feels like me, or do you think I'm toxic?

I know I'm toxic honestly and wish I could do something about it but I'm probably too far gone. I often think it's best if I'm not around others for this reason and have left some people which makes me feel worse. I honestly think people are better off without me, I know I would be. It's incredibly hard to do things properly though when anxiety and depression and exhaustion get in the way.

My head hurts too much to re-read your post and try to cite evidence but I'd say I think a lot of us here are toxic even if just to ourselves. I'm not sure about to others for you - sometimes it's good for others to be able to express their life isn't perfect instead of repressing their darkness. But dwelling in this darkness continuously or being exposed to it continuously takes a toll on anyone.

 

[magicalsarcoma]

Sometimes i also think that depression can be contagious, hah. So for quite a long time i prefer not to talk to cheerful, not callous people about my worldview

 

[bing]

You probably are toxic - it's cool. People just want ppl like us to stfu and take it. Otherwise if we talk we are "toxic". You can't win!

 

[Maaizr]

You probably are toxic - it's cool. People just want ppl like us to stfu and take it. Otherwise if we talk we are "toxic". You can't win!

im toxic for sure and i love it tbh its pretty liberating once you just kinda lean in and embrace it haha but thats definitely not for everybody either

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I had a history of being pretty toxic to women. Did a lot of damage by getting seriously involved and then remaining commitment phobic. I was not entirely aware of what I was doing at the time but profoundly regret my behavior. Ironically, when I finally got past this and was finally able to commit 100% with overwhelming love and support for a very special someone… I was the one who got completely fucked… Karma perhaps…

 

[help56]

Is anyone abondoned . People get tired of depressed people
Everyone got tired of me and gave up
I need help