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Strwberri

Strwberri

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May 5, 2024
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For 6 years of my life, I've thought about nothing but not being alive anymore. I swear everyday these thoughts get worse and worse. I've planned out my suicide multiple times, but sadly I would never go through with it. I've lost all hope that I'll ever get better. I'm so tired of this- I can't live like this anymore. It's so pathetic atp
 
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Illegal Preclear

Illegal Preclear

The CEO of CTB
Sep 6, 2022
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Why do you feel like you'd never be able to go through with it? What kind of plans have you made? I hope you find a reliable plan in your travels that puts you at ease. Don't feel bad about wanting to do it for years and not going through with it - sometimes it takes decades. It's okay to not be ready yet. I think a part of being ready is being happy and laughing at the prospect of it. It took me quite some time to get to that point.
 
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divinemistress87

divinemistress87

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Jan 1, 2024
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I'm going on 6 years of intense suicidal idealation to. I know how hard it is
 
Strwberri

Strwberri

Member
May 5, 2024
5
Why do you feel like you'd never be able to go through with it? What kind of plans have you made? I hope you find a reliable plan in your travels that puts you at ease. Don't feel bad about wanting to do it for years and not going through with it - sometimes it takes decades. It's okay to not be ready yet. I think a part of being ready is being happy and laughing at the prospect of it. It took me quite some time to get to that point.
Why do you feel like you'd never be able to go through with it? What kind of plans have you made? I hope you find a reliable plan in your travels that puts you at ease. Don't feel bad about wanting to do it for years and not going through with it - sometimes it takes decades. It's okay to not be ready yet. I think a part of being ready is being happy and laughing at the prospect of it. It took me quite some time to get to that point.
ig part of me is scared that it'll be a failed attempt. I've thought of multiple plans (like drinking bleach, using a noose, overdosing, etc) but in the end i chicken out of it. I'm a huge coward lol. Also thank you. I'm hoping I find a reliable plan that puts me at ease as well
I'm going on 6 years of intense suicidal idealation to. I know how hard it is
It's tiring isn't it?
 
Imprisoned

Imprisoned

Oblivion
Jan 10, 2024
99
There's nothing worse than being torn apart between the worlds of existance and non-existance. It's like you can't fully commit to one or the other.
 
Strwberri

Strwberri

Member
May 5, 2024
5
There's nothing worse than being torn apart between the worlds of existance and non-existance. It's like you can't fully commit to one or the other.
I agree. It's the worse feeling ever
 
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